Back in May I tried to kill myself. I thought the only person I could talk to about it would be my bestfriend, but then he told my mum because he didn’t want to loose me. I’ve had counselling but that hasn’t helped. I don’t want to tell my mum because last time she found out I was depressed, it broke her heart. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m sick of it all. Getting called names at school, yeah they might only be names but name calling really hurts. I even get bullied because of the fact I’m half Indian, like seriously if I got the choice to choose what I wanted to be do you think I would choose to be half Indian?. I’m really depressed lately because I miss my niece so much. She died when she was born. I never even got the chance to meet her. Jess was her name. I feel like she’s there, watching me, seeing how I’m doing, but I also feel it’s all in my head. My life is out of control. I’m sick of it. Someone please help me, even if it’s the last thing they do. I can’t be dealing with crying myself to sleep anymore. I’m even crying now writing this, so please can someone help me.
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First of all, you should know that you are not alone — there are many people on this site who care about you…many people here are going through similar problems, therefore they understand you completely.
Secondly it’s obvious that your mom cares about you deeply; she just might feel like she doesn’t know how to help you. This is often the case with parents, but their kids interpret it as their parents don’t care. This is not the case at all. Have you told your mom what you’re depressed about? Since it’s obvious she cares about you deeply, maybe you could have a long talk with her, and tell her what is making you feel depressed.
Why do you feel ashamed to be half Indian? You should feel very proud of that.
Remember, you’re not alone — there are many people here who are going through similar problems, and will talk to you.
I feel ashamed because all through my life there has always been someone who is racist towards me.. The funny thing is though, they tell me to go back to my own country but England is my own country, I was born here so really the joke is on them.. I’ll try and remember.. Thank you
I think being half Indian is really cool. What else are you? I’m mixed as well. Palestinian and Mexican, the two most unwanted races in the United States haha. Just my luck. You shouldn’t let people make you feel negative about who are you, I think it’s awesome to be different. Join the club. I would like to know more about what it’s like to be Indian. You should embrace it. I hope I get to hear from you soon. Stay up, the fact that you’re here right now, reading this, means you’re strong, and you’re only getting stronger each day that you hold on. We’re here for you, we’re here to listen. I know I am.
I’m half Indian and half English.. Thank you for all of this support
Hi, I really get what you are saying, I know it’s hard and I don’t know when it’s going to get better, but find a reason not not give in. Find a reason to shake off their words, find a reason to live.i know it will get you more depressed about thinking of why you want to live, but if you think about it something will hit you when your not thinking.
Just so you know people who hate you for your race is lower then scum, and will never understand anything in life. You can’t change your race , accept that and figure out a way that you can be ok with who you are with out changing your race
By the way, what grade are you in?
I’m not from the United States actually,I’m from England… But by me working out, I think I’m in 8th Grade, I’m 13 anyway.. Thank you for the support, much appreciated
fisrt of all, i’m Asian and i have lots of indian friends and i think they are all cool! I think indian is not bad because my funniest teacher is an indian and everyone in my school loves and respect him. I love indian cuisine so much i ate them almost twice a week. So basically, you just need to be proud of your races and give reasons not to be humble. Do not let them bully you easily. Stare at them and try to fight back using physical or words. I know you can do it because i was a victim too that’s why i’m here. But haha another problems came to me thats why i think i’ll stuck here for the rest of my life. I just want to know that you are not alone. A lot of people are fighting and struggling their life too, especially those who are here. We felt what you feel. So, don’t do anything stupid to yourself and stand out in the crowd! Be smart and let them afraid of you. Be someone that teachers could proud of 🙂 🙂
lots of love, Georgia 🙂
Thank you so much.. We have the same name, just mine is spelt as Jorja 🙂
I’m half Native American and spent most of my life being bullied also… embrace your indifference, most people simply pick out what they don’t understand and those who are different from them. If you ever need anyone to talk to I’d be greatful to do so. 🙂
Okay.. Thank you for the advice