I don’t know why I think this way! I have a good job, loving family and no real money worries, but I constantly feel as if am a drain on my wife and family. I know I suffer from PD, and as I get older I guess I just struggle to live with me! I have bought a thick plastic bag, duct tape and was going to tape the bag tight round my neck, probably tape my mouth too so I can’t scream. Then once all in place and gonna tie-wrap my hands behind my back and let it happen. With my hands secure then even if I panic there is nothing I can do to stop the inevitable. I’ve had enough of dragging my wife and daughter down, they will have such a better quality if life in their own without me.
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Likely your daughter and wife would feel terrible you did that.
You have something to live for.
Many here don’t even have that much.
Think about what I am saying here………… you have reason to live, really.
Appreciate what u say, but I’m constantly miserable with life and it’s clearly effecting my daughter
Just think about how it would affect her if you killed yourself….. . she would be really devestated.
Am not so sure! I actually think it may be quite liberating for them both as I can be awful to live with. My moods are terrible and I never want to be part of anything and I suppose tht includes family! My attitude and emotional instability really drag them down and I feel they could be doing more and involved with more, without me holding them back. I can see no other way out for them and me. This is the perfect time as the old year dies and things start anew, for them and me. Our journeys maybe re on different paths. Call it my New Years gift to them, freedom.