It’s not that I hate my life. I just hate myself. I’m just starting to realize that now but I think it’s been going on longer than that. I just hate everything about me. I can’t stand to look at myself in the mirror without wanting to strangle myself for being so disgusting, not only physically but also on the inside. I’m an awful human being and I don’t deserve to be here anymore. I think this now more than ever especially since I’m just coming to realize what a piece of shit I am. The thing that pisses me off if that I know for whatever reason there are people that care about me and if I were to end my life then I would be hurting those people. I don’t want anyone to care anymore. I just want to take these codeine pills I have right now and sleep forever.