Crazy

I am still a cutter. Only occasionally. I do it because I am addicted to it. I imagine this is how smokers feel. I get a high off it that makea me feel alive. Then there is the fun of hiding the cuts. There is one thing that bothers me though. It is the thought that I can see myself dead on ten years by my own hand. I don’t know why but I think I will take my own life. I’m currently mentally stable but I can shake the feeling that someday I won’t and that will be very bad. i honestly feel like i will become a crazy person