I don’t care what people have to say but this is my only way out if this horrible life im living I want to kill myself but I need a fast way because my boyfriend is always with me I only have about a 40 minute window when he goes to buy sneakers someone please help me I can’t bare to live another day I am suffering and I want to die already I am a burden to my mother my family my boyfriend everyone complains about me and I want to die if I don’t find a way here I will over dose on illegal drugs by tomorrow
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Hopefully you will feel better soon.
I’m 46 and for so many years I wanted (tried) to die. Screw it! Just take it the way it is. You didn’t create life, let the creator take care of this mess. Maybe what seems a mess to us is not a mess at all, but we feel pain. Tony Robbins says he saved all suicide attempts that came to him, I listen to his videos and read his materials and I think to myself, “I would have hated myself not any less if I was him”. I’m sure it’s the same for you, we have that feeling and no circumstance would make it any better. You’re probably a thinking person and looking for “meaning” well don’t! Meaning gives pain.
I am supposed to turn 26 in march . I have a four year old boy who I LOVE to death. I am a failure. I cause my mother stress because I can not take care of myself . I need knee surgery that I can not get because I am in an abusive relationship and I’m scared I Wont be able to fight back. He doesn’t want me here but he won’t let me leave. I can’t go any where alone but he goes everywhere alone. I cut my hair short because of him pulling it to the point that I have painful sores all over my head, now he won’t let me cut it. I want to shave my head so he can’t hurt me pulling my hair anymore but I’m scared he might just start banging my head into things instead since ill have no hair to grab. I use to be a happy girl always smiling and making others laugh I used to enjoy life. Before nothing could bring me down. But now I’m just so miserable I can’t be myself he gets irritated when he sees me happy and fights with me I’m so tired of having to defend myself . I don’t even know who I am anymore I’ve completely lost myself. I’ve already lived a quarter of my life and ruined it. I just want to die being alive is horrid suffering I can no longer take I am a prisoner, always covered in bruises scratches and scars I can’t take it anymore I DONT WANT TO LIVE IN THIS HELL ANOTHER DAY
I think you need to ditch that guy and find a battered women’s shelter.
I don’t think he’s worth u killing or harming ur self. He has demons he needs to deal with ur young n it’s plenty men out here…..yes u will find someone better, that will bring ur happy back. U got to let go of thenegative weight…..u will be ok
I guess no matter wat the reason is we are all still on this site wanting to die. Who am I really to say something u. Hmm…..wat is this life thing all about :'(
Dearest sister,
Do not be afraid of your boyfriend! I have been around abusing men all my life, and I know that men who abuse women are the weakest cowards of all. You must take control, be strong and never afraid. Do it for your child that I’m sure is beautiful.
What the fuck is wrong with guys like that? If I could I would throw them all in prison. And not any kind of prison. Guantanamo Bay type prison. Fucking HELL. Makes me so angry.
You need to run far, far away. Tell the police. We can’t have maniacs like this running amuck in our society, destroying people for their own personal pleasure. If only I was a vigilante who could take care of such worthless pieces of shit.
http://suicideproject.org/2014/01/this-is-when-i-try-to-leave/
^and what the fuck is wrong with girls like that, who continually submit to such outrageous treatment?
So many women so easily disregard me, based on what they perceive and/or presume… why can’t you all just apply that to those abusive jerks?
Is it that you prefer tolerating the abuse, in exchange for the benefits you receive?
And if you think it’s a fair or acceptable cost, in order to continue accessing those benefits… then why complain?
Either ditch the guy, or accept the consequences of your choice to stay. It’s that simple. This is one of those things you can actually change, if it’s bad enough that you really want to.
it’s okay to be afraid; fear is a natural thing. But the way you deal with fear is to confront it, instead of letting it control you.
If someone is hurting you, then it is your duty to yourself (and your offspring), to do whatever it takes to stop that person from hurting you further. You can try reasoning with people, and it’s usually the best first choice… but when someone won’t listen to reason, then you are no longer obligated to respect their humanity, and if they continue harming you, you are fully justified in doing anything in your power, to force them to cease. If you have to gouge eyes and kick balls, bite, run and scream… then do it. But if it comes to that, you’ll probably have to kill him, to make sure he doesn’t heal up and come back for revenge later.
First things first, get to safety, call the police, file a report, request to have him taken into custody, request a restraining order, and tell everyone you know about him and his abusive antics, so that they all know to look out for him, so they can help protect you.