I have to be here if I don’t want to be. I do not believe in God or Hell so you can’t scare me with that stuff. I am 55 year old woman, no husband, no kids. I have been trying to half heartedly kill myself since I was 15. The last two years I have gotten the method down. It’s just a matter of courage right now.
What I ask is why we have to be here if it is miserable? I have medical problems….if I had a dog who suffered as I do, the vet would tell me to put him to sleep. Why would anyone want someone to plug away, continue to suffer? To make YOU feel better?
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@Never-free-never-me: Yes, I agree with you. We grant our pets more mercy than we grant each other. If there were legal, medically competent facilities where people like us could go, someplace peaceful, staffed with the kindest, least judgmental, most caring people (so the abused could experiences kindness at least just before death)–go to leave life, don’t you feel many of us would choose to give that final responsibility to another?
Like you, I’m frightened. Not of an afterlife of punishment, but just of the abject solitude of that last moment, after a life lived in … solitude. I wish it were safe to explore methods here.
Peace to you.
you’ve been so strong so long. It’s a long time to be unhappy. I can’t answer your questions, Im wondering the same thing, You’re post touched me. I don’t know about you but i like when people are touched by something I say, it makes me feel a little bit better. I hope you feel a little bit better now that you shared and touched two person enough to comment.
It takes guts to help someone who is physically suffering to commit ‘suicide’. In fact it is about a will. It will probably take many years until something is done about this. We are humans and the dogs are animals. Animals do not have religion. Religion is against suicide. It is not the only issue though. It is also a ‘view’ problem: How we perceive the world and the ones inhabiting the earth. It is also about groups – family. Each one with a different perspective of those surrounding them.
There were times when Henry Cecil asked why. He won the trainers championship 10 times between 1976 and 1993. From 1995 his marriage failed and his supporters deserted him. He spent the next 10 years in the wilderness. Failing to saddle a single group 1 winner the stable shrank from 200 horses to around 50. These were bad times. He later recounted walking along the Heath and over hearing someone say ‘there’s Cecil. Why doesn’t he just retire’. He didn’t give up. In 2007 Light Shift won the Oaks and Cecil was back. In 2012 his Frankel achieved a rating of 140. Someones who’s determined and a relentless worker will always find a way.
When my mother decided to be taken off life support, I was there for her, making certain she got her pain meds ASAP. I told the nurses that animals get better treatment by loving humans at end of life, and that I would not ‘chicken out’ on Mom. And I didn’t. she died peacefully.
I too have been suicidal since age 16. I am now 69. I think because my health is good and I own my home surrounded by 3 acres of woods, I am finally happy. I never married or had children either. I now have 2 cats and one dog. They are peaceful angels.
I’m not religious. I am spiritual. I believe you have the right to die, even though I can’t help you. Some persons simply aren’t made for this competative lifetime. I understand. I cannot help except to say that Lexapro has helped me. It took a few years for my body to adjust, but now, when I don’t want to get out of bed, it helps me do it.
If you can find something worthwhile that gives you purpose, it might help.
Personally, I wrote a ficticious novel about a young woman’s struggle with suicide and cutting. It goes to an editor and publisher next month–I hope. I’m self publishing because agents and professional publishes won’t let you tell it the way you want.
That my finances are okay at the moment helps too.
I wish you well, no matter what you decide, and peace if there is a continuing after death.
Love,
Vedura