some times while yet again i am sat at home feeling low, and alone..It gets me thinking why am i still here, and what makes it worse is im going to be that great big 50 this year. like most people by now life should be fun, loving, have plenty of friends etc.. Being older is not ment that you are some how wiser. if that was the case i would not be on here writing this now.
its ment to be a time to look back and say what have i done with my life and what happens next. well ive done shit all. I’m just as lonely now as i was growing up. I have been doing the same daily routine for what seems like all my life. i can here people advice “only you can change it” Not for the want of trying let me tell you. And yes i have tried to take my own life twice now. I got the help that they offer, a chat counselling and all the other bollocks. But im still in the same position and nothing has changed. every day life is always the same. i am un-employed yet again, and am in a house in a small town, not knowing anyone, not having a job. No one to call and chat to that will understand. yes i have children but they now lead there own lives. i am now at that stage again knowing i dont want to be here, i know it will upset my children, but in time they will be ok. and at least i wont feel alone. I’ve done the mixing in the community, voluntary and all that, but im still on my own. I have more things going on in my life than most and also have the every day troubles just like every one else, no money, in debt, and living on my own. I dont want to feel like my life is over god im only 50 not on the scrap heap just yet.. i just want a LIFE any type of life, friends, love not to worry and not to be so low and un-happy.
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Exercise helps ALOT. Make sure you are drinking an abundance of pure water and eat healthy.
Join a church and go every Sunday.
Acts 18:10
Viewing the King James Version:
For I am with thee, and no man shall set on thee to hurt thee: for I have much people in this city.
I know how you feel. I’m 57, retired, okay pension, single, all alone. I have a couple of friends, but the relatins are pretty shallow, more just folks to occasionally do thongs with. I’ve done the suggested ideas of volunteering, various groups, etc., but can’t fit in. My personality is “loner”, it’s so hard to connect with people. I don’t know the answer obviously, but wish you luck in trying to improve your situation.