suicide is my only way for me now i am 34 ,just a bad quality person selfish stupid slow,i have no friends no carizma i have 2 kids from 2 different women but i dont feel sad to leave them in this world may be because i hadn’t enough love in my childhood –. i cannot take anything seriously and no one take me seriously . …now i have a serious problem and i dont have any power to face it because i know that all the stories of success or love or happyness are just dreams .the only truth is that we are mortals ,,, so it is better wake up from my dream because it is becoming a nightmare
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Maybe others here are going through something similar to your serious problem and can help. You don’t have to share everything, but maybe a few details could provide enough to assist. I’ve been through the darkness… and sometimes I still go through the storm… but everything doesn’t have to be heck. There is help…. here and elsewhere.
Sometimes my life feels so out of control, i’m free falling without a chute. As for the darkness…..its like trying to crawl your way back up the rabbit hole….or a well. You aren’t alone.
Carry on brave soul.
I am 36 I know how you feel. My husband didn’t come home last night after band practice then karaoke at the bar. he went straight to work at 8 this morning. I can’t make it financially alone with my kids so I am stuck. I’m in school but it will be years before I am done. The job I have now I went to college for but it is a dying field and I will be lucky if it lasts long enough for me to finish school. So i’m stuck for now. I just hope I can make it mentally until I can leave him.
Dear sfigato,
Sound to me like you take suicide seriously. True we are mortals so why concern yourself with that? That can not be changed. However, to love lost in your past can be let go. You can Love your children, and find meaning to life at the same time. we are here to guide the next generation on a path on more knowledge and less suffering then we were exposed to. Love and happiness are not just dreams reserved for “the fortunate” they are possibilities for all who truly want it.
If you want things to change you need to start taking yourself seriously. I know you have real feasible dreams inside that head of yours and I ask you who has the right to say you can’t do them? No one. Start taking yourself seriously and things will start happening for you. A man with a plan is a dangerous man.
You say had little love in your childhood? Well than why not break the cycle? Don’t abandon your kids because of some abandonment by your parents. Be the bigger person and break the cycle. Be there for them. Otherwise you may send them on a path that leads to a similar fate and I know you don’t want that. Find it in yourself to show them all the love you can.
In life, in order to achieve anything truly complex and difficult, one must first find their “Why?” The answer to the “why” behind why you trying to accomplish whatever it is in life. Your “why” could be your kids. Your kids could be the source of your drive in life. The reason you are so damned determined to accomplish your goals. Something to think about.