No more… no more… please…

If I knew anxiety was produced by my right arm I would find a way to tear it off. There is no emotion that turns physical on me faster or more intensely than anxiety. I drank and took every drug I could get my hands on for many years trying to avoid anxiety. Of course that never really worked except when I passed out but what good is that? I turned to guided meditation and self hypnosis for a while but that never really worked either. I tried spiritual things too but I found that there isn’t really a God out there that gives a shit. There must be a way to stop this. There must be a way.