So I thought lets do my make up and then go down stairs to eat but.. I did my founation and it was worse then normal so I washed my face and did it again. Ended up doing it 3 times. Worse then normal. Then when I washed my face again I nearly lost my balance and got soap in my eye. I wanted to scream! I had never experience something like this. I was thinking that the devil is playing tricks on mme for fun. I also started crying and thought why should I be alive. Just like I told my mom. Who said: “if you commit suicide, I am going to a metal house.” But I kept on thinking all the things I did wrong. Complainig, lying, getting angry for no reason, and thinking why I am still alive.
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I guess that’s a good reason to scream or to swear or whatever, but perhaps one shouldn’t do suicide because of it ;P. I get it though, when you are feeling down generally, even small things can feel so overwhelming and frustrating. Such as coffee spilling on keyboard. A healthy person would just swear and clean it up, while a depressed or suicidal one throws himself / herself to the ground crying for death. It’s quite silly really but what can you do.
“It’s quite silly really but what can you do.”
How about don’t carry the coffee cup to a position where it can be spilled on the keyboard? This is called learning.
As for the other thing… you’ll have to make sure to remember to breathe while doing anything near your eyes, because you might get dizzy and end up with stuff in your eye, or worse.
But I can’t live, let alone study without coffee and my studies tend to involve the computer ;(. I need it!
“As for the other thing… you’ll have to make sure to remember to breathe while doing anything near your eyes, because you might get dizzy and end up with stuff in your eye, or worse.”
Sharp observation by the way :p. I was wondering why she suddenly lost balance. If you focus something that also needs you to stay still, you can forgot to breathe, causing dizzynes. That sorta explains it.
This is undoubtedly the worst day in the history of the world.