I fell in love with a boy who left me and lied to me multiple times. He comes back every time wanting me to just forgive him for everything he has done to hurt me. He has told me things and called me names. He told me to kill myself. I am seriously taking this in to consideration. He doesn’t understand what he is doing to me. He is destroying me and I can’t help, but replay all of this over and over again in my head. I am losing sleep and I haven’t been eating right. When I do eat, I end up throwing it up. I feel so unwanted and lost in my emotions. I want to die, but part of me wants to be alive.. I have tried to overdose, but it didn’t work right. He tells me he is in love with my best friend just to hurt me. He says it and then tells me he was just telling himself that to get over me. I keep letting him in and he keeps leaving me. I am not sure what to do anymore with my life. I am messing up in school, my mom is making me go to therapy, my dad is awful and he is going to be gone for a long time, my little brother tells everyone at school that I am a suicidal wreck, and I am losing my friends. I just want this all to end and for my life to be normal. My life has never been normal and I hate that. I am done with being used and there for everyone else when they need me, but having no one to talk to when I am feeling worthless.
Yes, love is a fucking lie. This pain, every day when I wake up, I feel it and it won’t go away. I cried when I woke up yesterday because I remembered that everything that is happening to me is real–I was hoping it was just a bad dream. I hardly ever cry, but this is just too much. I loved him so much, he said he loved me, too, but he lied, he used me. I was just entertainment for him. I wasted a year of my life loving and caring for him, being the nicest, kindest person to him. This is what I get. I am too much of a coward to take my own life. I wish someone would come to my house and murder me and end it all.
Men are horrible creatures. They make you fall in love with them. They make promises. They give you false hope. Then they drop you like a piece of garbage and forget you like you never existed.
I really need someone to talk to. I am in so much pain. I need someone to prescribe me some medicine to relieve this pain.
It might be difficult but, once a cheater always a cheater you seriously don’t deserve the pain. The fact that you give him your heart and he ignores it? Next time he leaves you don’t take him back you’ll be doing yourself a favor.
I have been giving him attention because I still care. I still care even though he continues to use me and hurt me. I am going to try my best to ignore him and stop all communication with him. It is hard. Thank you guys. I am sorry you are going through all of that and I will talk to you if you’d like. I know its hard to have so much going on and having no one to there to listen. Men and women can be horrible. It’s not just men. Women cheat and hurt people just as much as men do. You will be fine without medication. Please don’t do anything to harm yourself. You deserve happiness and someday you will find a guy who will be there for you and never leave you. I won’t take him back. I am going to stand my ground.
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I fell in love with a boy who left me and lied to me multiple times. He comes back every time wanting me to just forgive him for everything he has done to hurt me. He has told me things and called me names. He told me to kill myself. I am seriously taking this in to consideration. He doesn’t understand what he is doing to me. He is destroying me and I can’t help, but replay all of this over and over again in my head. I am losing sleep and I haven’t been eating right. When I do eat, I end up throwing it up. I feel so unwanted and lost in my emotions. I want to die, but part of me wants to be alive.. I have tried to overdose, but it didn’t work right. He tells me he is in love with my best friend just to hurt me. He says it and then tells me he was just telling himself that to get over me. I keep letting him in and he keeps leaving me. I am not sure what to do anymore with my life. I am messing up in school, my mom is making me go to therapy, my dad is awful and he is going to be gone for a long time, my little brother tells everyone at school that I am a suicidal wreck, and I am losing my friends. I just want this all to end and for my life to be normal. My life has never been normal and I hate that. I am done with being used and there for everyone else when they need me, but having no one to talk to when I am feeling worthless.
why are you giving him any attention? ignore this cheater, you don’t need him, & you’d find better than him 🙂 .
Yes, love is a fucking lie. This pain, every day when I wake up, I feel it and it won’t go away. I cried when I woke up yesterday because I remembered that everything that is happening to me is real–I was hoping it was just a bad dream. I hardly ever cry, but this is just too much. I loved him so much, he said he loved me, too, but he lied, he used me. I was just entertainment for him. I wasted a year of my life loving and caring for him, being the nicest, kindest person to him. This is what I get. I am too much of a coward to take my own life. I wish someone would come to my house and murder me and end it all.
Men are horrible creatures. They make you fall in love with them. They make promises. They give you false hope. Then they drop you like a piece of garbage and forget you like you never existed.
I really need someone to talk to. I am in so much pain. I need someone to prescribe me some medicine to relieve this pain.
It might be difficult but, once a cheater always a cheater you seriously don’t deserve the pain. The fact that you give him your heart and he ignores it? Next time he leaves you don’t take him back you’ll be doing yourself a favor.
I have been giving him attention because I still care. I still care even though he continues to use me and hurt me. I am going to try my best to ignore him and stop all communication with him. It is hard. Thank you guys. I am sorry you are going through all of that and I will talk to you if you’d like. I know its hard to have so much going on and having no one to there to listen. Men and women can be horrible. It’s not just men. Women cheat and hurt people just as much as men do. You will be fine without medication. Please don’t do anything to harm yourself. You deserve happiness and someday you will find a guy who will be there for you and never leave you. I won’t take him back. I am going to stand my ground.