ok well here it is im 17 and I met this girl online when I was 16 shes 19 and lives in california(im in ireland) I never planned on liking her this much but things happened and now all I think about is us we’ve been in a relationship a while now and she says she will come and visit and hope she does we say “i love you” to eachother 3-5 times a day and I really do love her but if things dont work out (nearly all online relationships fail) then ill be alone and then I can finally end this life I do love her but I cant,shake these thoughts honestly I wanna spend the rest of my life with her whether its long or short but im scared to be rejected again ive been rejected so much that its a normal thing to me but it still hurts and I dont think I can take losing her if she goes then ill die shes my world,shes whats keeping me going and I cant take losing her
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At one point in my life, long ago, i was where you are now. Only I met the *****, married her, was with her for 17 years total (married 14), and found out later it was all a lie on her end.
She had a second life, even while here with me. She screwed half this town, turned out to be an excessive whore, noone liked her, she lost her own friends as well as chased mine away. I am no longer with her. She left me, cleaned a lot of the house out, etc.
So, don’t be so excited in being with someone you never met. Don’t end up like me. I also tried to end my life coz of her.
You want that for you?
I want to die but she keeps me going shes one of the few people I feel like she actually cares no one else does
Tell her how you feel. Don’t hide. Let her know who she’s marrying. If she still wants to be with you after that, then she might really love you.
Not saying you’re thinking of marriage yet though, but let her know that you struggle with suicidal thoughts perhaps. And let her know your intentions of a relationship to some extent.
And I am not responsible for any advice I give that turns out badly 🙂
Listen,
I’ve been where you are. I’ve done the long distance thing. I was in a LDR for close to a year and a half. We visited often, but despite it all, it didn’t work out. I’m not trying to downplay the love in your heart for her at all. I believe you do love her. However I also remember what it was like to be young and in a LDR. I really hope you guys stand the test of time and do make it. You’ll be that 10% that made it! However the fact that you’re both young, the Odds are sadly stacked against you. And I really don’t want to rain on your parade. Tell me I’m wrong, and I won’t say another word. I just don’t want you to end your life if things don’t work out in the end. Both of you guys need to set reasonable healthy goals if you haven’t already. Examples; When will we see each other next, At what age or time will one of us move to be with the other, and who will that be. Am I or she able to remain happy despite being away from friends and family. And seriously think about that. You or she will be leaving EVERYTHING you know behind to be with her. Is it worth it, yes! Only if both of you are truly in it for the long haul. If one or both of you are in this to avoid the loneliness or sadness in each your own lives, and you try to find meaning through each other it will not work out. And I really hope it does work out for you guys. Just remember this, even if it doesn’t, life as you know it is not over. It is still worth living. You have to remember that. You just have to give it time. If it does end at some point, and you still want to end your life. Do this for me, give yourself one year. At the end of that year (12 months from the time it ended) without any communication from her and you still want to go through with it, that’s your call. If I’ve learned one thing in my life, it’s that you can’t find your own happiness through others. It has to come from within. If either one of you are not currently happy in your own separate lives, you won’t ever be happy together. And you’re free to tell me I’m wrong and I don’t know what I’m talking about etc. Just know, I’ve been on this earth for quite a bit longer. I wish you both the very best!
she doesnt like her family she doesnt talk to them shes told me she wants to move here to be with me shes also talked about a family for us so does that answer your question