Hi Life. I too have felt like shit for most of my existence. I do have to admit that I did have a few good years when I first got married, and when my son was little. But now, my wife is divorcing me after 24 years and I’m living with my parents. I too wish this life would end because I don’t see any hope for the future. The only thing that really brings me any happiness is spending time with my son (he’ll be 18 next month), but I only visit with him 2 times a week. Today’s visit with him kind of sucked. He’s kinda distant. He says he’s not depressed, but “life sucks” and he wouldn’t care if he died and he’d be “better of dead.” It really saddened me to hear him say all this. He said he thinks he has only a couple of years left before he goes insane because I started hearing voices in college and he thinks the same thing will happen to him. I told him me life is my life and his life is his. Whatever happened to me isn’t necessarily going to happen to him. I guess I think the same about you Life. Maybe there will be some good years here and there. And I don’t pretend to know much about the gay thing, but in just a few years when you’re on you’re own you’ll be free to be whoever you want to be. To hell with what anyone else thinks. And don’t worry about the next 60+ years, just try to do one little thing each day that makes you happy. Best of luck to you Life!