I’m keeping all these feelings locked up inside of me, and they are beginning to eat at my soul, inside I feel like my heart has turned into a black hole sucking every ounce of happiness I can manage to obtain. The smile I wear each day is as fake as each person that says they care for me. I’m looking to obtain eternal happiness, and the only way it seems like I’m going to get it is in death. Because in life you can’t depend on anyone else but yourself, but what happens when even you give up on yourself.?
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This is everything I wanted to say.
You are the first person to say they feel the same way as I do.
I think what was said is what everyone’s always wanted to say .. perfect.
Stay Strong.
<3 My heart felt your pain as I read through every sentence. A pain I know so much about. Try to not keep ur thoughts locked up in silence anymore at least not on here. Share what's on ur mind, your very strong for posting this even if ur telling urself as u read this your not, u are. It's hard for u to see but I do… sharing a story you tell urself why do it ya know what is the point but even if u felt that way u still shared one and I hope you'll get to read a comment soon that will make u realize why your post was so important.
This is my first day on this site.. it’s honestly slightly relieving to know there’s people in the same situation still fighting on.. it gives me hope
It helps me to read here too. I used to have the black hole thing, but eleven months ago it changed to a spear in the chest thing and a lot of other pains that I guess are stress related. I know what you mean about being afraid to commit suicide. Depending on circumstances, that seems like a good thing to me. Otherwise I would probably be dead. It is not the same as feeing glad to be alive though. That is for sure.