Well, it’s simple and maybe stupid but today’s my birthday. I’m 22. My friends and family forgot about it, like every year. My best friend and my (now ex) boyfriend totally forgot it too. I have been sad since September, 2014. Recently I have been even sadder. I have been considering suicide but I don’t want to make people feel sad, but I can’t do this anymore, I’m always crying. I’m scared of myself. There’s too much going on. I really want to die. Thanks for reading.
PS: I know this is stupid, but it’s not the main problem, I’m just too sensitive right now.
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Care to share what else is bothering you? for the record, i don’t think you’re being over sensitive… i’d be pretty upset if everyone forgot my birthday, it’s a perfectly valid reason to be upset. Happy birthday by the way! (even if it’s worth nothing if it’s coming from a stranger on the internet, lol).
It´s a long story, here´s the short version. Almost 4 years of a happy relationship, boyfriend cheated on me when my mother had a heartattack. Mother still sick, it´s a genetic dissorder, sister is sick, I´m sick. Friends are too busy with college. I had a heartattack, friends still too busy. Best friend re-appear. I think everything is getting better. Dad gets sick, it is a chronic degenerative dissease. Best friend is really nice with me. We have funny days, he make me laugh. Financial problems. Mother have another heartattack, Dad is getting worse, bestfriend confuses about his feelings, he cuts contact again. It has been a hard year, I am not happy. 4 months with severe suicidal thoughts. This is not gonna end up well.
PS. Thank you so much 🙂 you made me smile
It might end well. Not perfectly but well, i mean, there are some things that can’t be solved (like some health issues, sadly), but people… well, they come and go. You might get some better friends (i say better because good friends don’t run when problems arise), lose them again, and then get some new ones again… endless cycle.
I do hope that your endless cycle of extreme situations start to diminish tho… can really relate because i had 1-2 years similar to those and… god, does it get exhausting. Was at the suicidal thoughts point too (well… sort of still am, considering the site i’m replying at). Do try to at least do something nice for yourself to auto-celebrate your birthday… eat a cupcake, punch someone you hate in the face, buy something you like for yourself… i don’t know. If people don’t celebrate it doesn’t mean that you can’t indulge yourself at least a bit. And thank you for saying i made you smile, that kinda made the blocks of text i wrote worth it, lol.
I hope that too, i´m really tired. I might punch myself in the face right now haha so I better wait untill tomorrow.
Happy birthday . I’m saying this from the heart . everyone forgot my 18th… And I cried all day. I just hate my birthday every year . I absolutely hate it . It’s a shitty day because you realize you’ve lived another shitty year in this shitty world . I hope you had a good birthday though.
Thank you so much. I know the feeling.
Happy Birthday to you. I know must probably mean nothing for you, because it is coming from an stranger. But I truly wish you could have a different day, a happy one. That you could be able to find the same happiness that you had before you became sad. I understand what is to go another year, another birthday living with sadness, without hope of better days ahead.
Try to do something different, buy yourself a cake or a cookie, make a wish. Maybe next things change in your life for better.
Thank you so much
When I was 22 I was living with friends and completely buried in mental illness. I don’t know why I just blerted that out, I should be saying happy birthday to you.
Happy birthday.
But you want to know a secret? (shhh i’ll say it quietly so my sins don’t hear) If you keep walking forward and keep talking it gets better. and then one day you look around and you made it to 25, then 30…which I was pretty sure I wouldn’t see when I was 22.
do something for yourself that you would never normally do. Something totally atypical. Like sign up for a subscription to Boy’s LIfe or donate a few chickens to a farmer in Vietnam through Heifer International. Or sit on the sidewalk and count how many people pick their noses at the stop light.
I’ll let that visual sink in.
Happy Birthday, and I sincerely mean that from the bottom of my heart.
Hahaha thank you so much :).
Happy Birthday! I really do believe that you can make it to another birthday…and another. Its okay to be sensitive, nobody is perfect. I believe in you.
Best of Birthday wishes to you!
Happy Birthday. If it means anything, I’m rooting for you. You’re gonna make it to the next one.
Happy Birthday Dear. 🙂