I’m sorry you’ve been suffering for so long. They’re awful problems to live with. I know it feels unbearable and if I knew a way you could recover I’d tell you. If you can hold on longer, I would try looking for something to try alongside what you’ve been taking. It’s not always enough to break free but if you find more treatments your chances of feeling better are higher. I hope you don’t have to end things. I hope you will soon be free from the pain.