I’m ssorry I’m posting so much…I must be annoying as heck ;-;
Idk I’m just crying in my bed and it hurts so much I can actually feel the pain in my chest
My thoughts won’t shut up and the voice in my head keeps shouting I’m better off dead while memories of the words rush through my mind while I cry and clutch my knees to my chest
God I don’t want to be here anymore…what’s the f*cking point in living a life like this…not being enough…being a constant disappointment and failure and a freak?
I just want to close my eyes and never wake up
It’s not fair to make me stay when I want to leave
I’m dying inside but no one cares because I’m worthless and really who would care??? My parents know I cry every night but they are right I should endure life people go through worse and don’t even whine
Maybe I just wasn’t meant for this world…
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*hugs*
Koiffee you are really struggling lately. I have been reading your posts but haven’t commented because I couldn’t think of what to say. You post all you need to work through this. Man I’ve been there, right where you are. It totally sucks and I so wish I had a place like this I could just take a dump at when ever I needed to. It would have saved me years of just being miserable.
Still, keep walking forward. It gets different and you learn coping skills.
Double manly hug*