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I know the feeling… hard to believe that anyone else can, but trust me. There was a time all I wanted was to see the people who did me the most harm watch me kill myself because of what they did/didn’t do. All the school bullies. My abusive mom and sister. All my people I called “Friends” but were far from it. I just needed to bring a gun to school and kill myself. I wouldn’t shoot anyone else of course, just walk in the middle of a busy area between classes, pull out my weapon and shoot myself.

But like most stories you hear, I chickened out… and maybe that was for the best. This might sound funny or ironic, but don’t be afraid to chicken out of a suicide. It will literally save your life. If you life is truly miserable and you do go through with it, you might succeed and you might not. If you don’t succeed, depending on the method, you’ll have permenate brain damage, be paralyzed somehow, or have organ failure. All incredible pain. The worst part about it is, while in that pain you’ll want kill yourself more than ever before, but at that point you’ll be watched 24/7 and no one will let you near a weapon or to many drugs.

If you succeed in your suicide… well, don’t get it wrong, you’ll be missed. Everything you hope for including your enemies feeling your same pain will come true. But then they’ll forget about you like pretty much any other suicide because that’s what humans have to do: move on. At least you’ll be out of pain though… if you succeed.