Someone told me that depressed people are always tired and he didn’t know why.
“You don’t know why you’re exhausted?
You’re fighting a war inside your head every single day.
If that’s not exhausting I don’t know what is.”
I’m tired of being broken and scarred.
I’m tired of being haunted and terrified.
I’m tired of always being of alert.
I’m tired of ‘coping’ with my past.
I’m tired of trying to seem okay.
I’m tired of hoping I will get better.
I’m tired of trying to live up to expectations and social standards.
I’m tired of being stressed and anxious 24/7.
I’m tired of my own mind.
I’m tired of breathing.
I’m tired of life.
I’m just so tired.
I’m exhausted.
Mind. Body. Soul.
All are exhausted.
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I totally understand. I am tired of a lot of things. Tired of getting roped into training new people at work, only to hear from another coworker that the girl I trained said she thought I’m not a people person, not personable. So what, I didn’t want to train her crazy ass. I probably have to train her again this week and she is pretending we are already friends. Um, no we are not friends and now I know she’s talking shit about me we have zero chance. Sorry to unload on your post. I just get a lot that you are saying….
Unload all you want. I am glad that someone understands.
But this girl sounds like she just wants attention and drama. I would stay clear of her. Nothing good comes from girls like that.
No truer words, restrictingheart. The war is exhausting.
That it is. At least we can share our war stories with each other.
I also understand how you feel. Depression makes even the simplest things tiresome. You’re weighed down by a mentality that makes the things you hate even worse, and the things you love less and less appealing. It slowly takes every part of you for itself. Depression really is like a parasite.
Like a parasite. That is the perfect analogy. Sometimes it creeps in without you realizing and it slowly takes the life out of you until it is alive and thriving well and it can always move on to someone else and leave you dead.
I feel you, I’m tired of fighting too. Wish I knew how to fix it for both of us. I get tired of hearing “move on” when my heart refuses
I hate when people say things like ‘move on’ or ‘get over it’ or ‘just be happy’. Nothing is ever that simple and if it was we would all be fine now. None of us would be here broken and in pain.
I’m sorry for the reasons you are tired. Keep pushing through.
Keep breathing.
fucking right. every breath ………. 🙁
Even if you have to fight through every breath you are still breathing. This isn’t easy but sometimes you really have to decide if you want to survive. And if you do you will. Everyone is stronger than they think they are.
“You don’t know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have.”
Yep. I hate always feeling like I have to be social and I have to be constantly on guard against my feelings and I have to live up to expectations. Sometimes I wonder if I like feeling depressed, because as bad as it is, it gives me a break from the constant fight to try and seem OK in the outside world.
Being in depression for so long it has become a new comfort zone. Once being used to expectations and new goals.
When you are in a deep depression, you are so used to feeling down and just trying to fight through each day. Long term goals don’t matter at that point.
You aren’t happy with being depressed.
You are comfortable with it. And for right now that is okay.
Yeah, Im so tired. I would like some at least decent life, but this constant barage of mental illness sriped my brain apart. Everything else in my life was great, even could possibly be now, i would learn how to live again, but my brain refuses to work again and its eternal anxienty of being alive…