I should be dead by now. I really should. I am a useless person. I dont even want to be alive the way my life is going.
I try to enjoy life but its hard for me to do so. I have tried to end it several times. I wish suicide was easier. I wish there was a simple
shot or pill you could just by somewhere that would do the trick quickly and painlessly.
I get sick of this shit called life. Its all bullshit at this point.
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You are not useless person. Quit trashing your self worth! Well, please try. I understand you don’t feel like you have any control over this.
All I seem to do is suffer in this life. I am just so sick of it.
I understand you. I plan my suicide too. In my case, I still have hopes to live for, great hopes. But I decided that humans are a disgusting race and even if the world will become a much better place, I still don’t want to belong to this race. Also, I believe that it’s everybody’s right to put an end to their life no matter what other religions say or the level of ther suffering(even happy people can commit suicide if they want). Even if I believe in God, I am very aware that God has nothing to do with this planet in our present timeline. The only thing we know about “God” is through religions, chanellings and near death experiences. The former were manipulated by men while the later are subjective experiences influenced by entities which are not trust worthy.
If someone lives in the spiritual world, that doesen’t mean that they know more about God.
To put it briefly I want to put an end to my life because I am sick of existence on this planet and I believe in the universe.
hope432 stop your making me cry
Hope432 I thank you for your interesting post. YES, I feel the same as you do. Yes I do believe that people should have the right to end their life if they want too.. and I dont believe they Have to be terminally ill in order to do so. Non of us chose to be born and life is not good for everybody. Me I have had a painful existence and it seems the only reason I am alive is to just consume like all humans do and to suffer. I really dont want to live anymore. I believe I have a right to end my life when I choose to…. and Yes I most likely will end my life at some point. I am just biding my time and tying to get all my bucket list times checked off before I go.
You are right. There is no real proof of God. I myself DO believe in God.. but I cant prove it and I don’t believe that God is active in our everyday lives. I have investigated a lot of claims made by some of the religions and many of the claims are bullshit. Just pure bullshit.
Religions are all made by people. I agree with some of what Christianity teaches but I am not pure about all of it… and some of it is just pure bullshit.
thanks for your post.
lol if its not made by people then is it …. the unicorns??!!! they wrote it with their antlers on stone..
Your crying makes me feel good. By the way, today I cried. Most of the time when I look on the internet for suicide methods I cry.
I have really tried to find reasons to keep living and I am running out of reasons.
my life is bunch of bullshit and i am tired of going through the bullshit
I hope you keep living for the next one and a half months. I may share with you something very important in august when the time is right. This may give you a very powerful reason to live.
Yes, I am going to live for as long as I can. Probably another year. I want to live long enough to vote for Trump and see the USA turn into a better country then it is currently.
PhantomCitizen43, Some body got up on the wrong side of the bed, we are all useless. absolutely no reason for any us to be here.but actually we are food for something?? everything needs energy of some type to survive, wonder what we feed????? OR ARE GOING TO FEED!!! KILLER CLOWNS!!!
I just have lived long enough. I have been through a tremendous amount of shit in life and it just keeps coming. I dont see the point of life to keep living if its all bullshit and pain. If its not one issue I have to deal with then its another. Ive already done most of the things I have ever wanted to do in this world. Now I am just hanging on to nothing. Just waiting to get old and die. Im sick of it. This life is bullshit at this point.
Yeah, I’ve felt that way for so long now. I remember saying instinctively on my 43rd birthday ( 48 now )..”Wow, soon be fifty”…I didn’t need to analyze why I had made that comment on what felt like autopilot. If I could give twelve years away this very moment ( or any moment for that matter ) then I wouldn’t hesitate because that would bring me up to sixty….so much closer to the finish line. NICE ! 🙂
You’d think i’d just end it all now wouldn’t you. Well, thats one of the things about the beauty of a sanctuary like SP. Folf here understand all the complexities that walk alongside that ‘solution’
PhantomCitizen43, I know it’s of little comfort mate but you’re not alone with your pain. If it was easy then I know we would both feel better immediately….not because we’d be immediately gone…but knowing we have that knowledge and comfort of going painlessly and peacefully ( and without complication or worry of a failed attempt ) whenever we wish. The way it stands we feel trapped and forced to endure this misery. I feel the pressure building daily and my mind’s like a tropical cyclone…i’ll say, right, i’ll stop eating, then i’ll rationalize that with another me’thod, followed by another. Then i’m in the bathroom with my hand around my throat telling myself what a useless little fuck up I am and how the mistakes of the past are proof of what a half-witted self sabotaging village idiot I actually am….and then I see how red i’ve gone in the face because my blood pressure is up due to all the high self hate levels maxing out and I think…go on, keep going boy….you’re nearly there ( stroke or heart attack and maybe then…peace ) but then I stop because i recognize that voice, it’s the sperm donor’s voice and how he always used to speak to me when I was a kid. Of course the truth is, I did fuck up spectacularly. Now I pray for the end.
PhantomCitizen43, you’re not alone. You are with your brothers and sisters. ( and great grandad AKA Rocketman lol ) <—-ahh, humour. 🙂
Escalado, great grandad!!! you keep that up and you won’t need to worry about turning 60!!! 🙂
Your great granddad was thinking that way 12 years ago! EAT YOUR HEART OUT!!! 🙂
2 More year’s and i can retire, and might i add in good shape! i look 50 and act 12.
don’t worry you will make it those 12 years will seem like your doing hard time but you will live. 🙂
PhantomCitizen43, Hey easy on the just get old and die stuff! Yeah I’ve done more than I wanted to do!! I’ve gotten in so much trouble, you are giving me a very hard way to go today, i want to agree with you! OK wait a minute! I never went to prison and dropped the soap! i never delivered pizza before! i guess i still have a few things on my bucket list!
why don’t you buy a brand new video game! in the past week I’ve starred cooking things i don’t normally cook. Chinese food was great, i made hot dog sandwiches, oh yeah bean and rice tacos! no meat! sour cream and salsa and cheese, they were quite tasty,
i just feel asleep in my chair at work, talk about tired.
Rocketman, you are a great person.
PhantomCitizen, I really hope that you find relief in death if you are to die, but as I said I suggest you to keep living for a while. Yes, life is bullshit. We should be able to get out of this body anytime we want.
hope432, your so nice thank you! 🙂 everybody on here id nice, this is where the nice depressed people hang out 🙂
Yeah I wish I could get out of this body easily. I wish there was just an off switch I could fick and be done with this life. LOL
Does it bring you any comfort know that one day mother nature will hit the switch?
Probably right when the girl of your dreams puts her arms around you and say’s i THINK YOUR HOT TA TA TA!!!
Then you’ll grab your heart and say NO! NO!! NOT NOW!!
Mother nature: CLICK!!!!!
its great go die
go with suspension hanging its best.
Get a grip, Mad-eye.
how about not?
not? why not? you know what dont talk to me im not talking to you so bye bye………………………………….. fucking people
Guys, no hate, remember? Try to take it easy…