I can’t bring myself to leave the house now. I’m too afraid to even entertain the idea of stepping outside. I was supposed to go to the field with my family so we could teach my brother to ride his bike, but I refused to go.
The voices have terrified me. So has Bree. There’s people outside that will get me, they say. They watch me through the cameras, they say. They look through the windows. So I avoid the windows. It’s getting to the point where I can’t deal with this all anymore.
I don’t see my therapist for another two weeks, I think. And even then I don’t want to leave the house to see her. I don’t want to carry on anymore. I’m not getting anywhere, the voices and Bree and everything else are destroying any chances I have.
I give up trying just for the sake of everyone else. I don’t even want to be here anymore. And I’m beginning to doubt I’ll be here by the time my therapy appointment comes around.
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i know how you feel. i hope you find a distraction to help block out all the voices. don’t give up. find something to try for. even if its just for day. one day at a time. <3
Have the voices ever been right about anything before? What makes you believe that they’re telling you the truth?