Problems

Some people need problems to get depressed, some people need that the money, friend, lover, family leave them for think in suicide.
Some like me just dont have this kind of problems, i just cant fell happy, and all those meds dont help, i feel more and more numb and helpless, life got no meaning, and i CANT Feel love for anyone at all… Its like, yeah, i like this person, but, if he\she dies, i wont grief at all… I dont know what kind of problem i have, but this isnt just depression… Its something more… Maybe im already dead…