I promised myself it wouldn’t happen again.
I told myself I wouldn’t be groomed again.
Yet here I am, In the same position I was in years ago.
All the memories and feelings are coming flooding back.
The fear, the guilt, the shame. I feel so disgusted with myself.
I feel so dirty.
I don’t know what to do.
I don’t understand how I’m back where I started.
I don’t understand how I broke the most important promise to myself.
I dont understand.
I feel like a failure again. I feel like a disappointment again.
I don’t understand how I’m here again.
I can’t believe I’m a failure again.
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WHAT? We are only suppose to feel like that once? man did i get that wrong!!
What I meant was I didn’t believe I would get groomed again.
I’m so sorry that you’re in this place again. But please, please, understand that the fault doesn’t lie with you. Whoever the bag of shit was that hurt you is only one who is at fault here.