There’s too much anxiety in my country, right now. (I don’t wanna get into politics, but it’s not hard to guess which country it is, ha.)
And it’s not even like I’m particularly affected by these political changes. I live a comfortable middle-class life, I’m not an illegal immigrant, I’m not transgender and so on.
But this past week, nothing has been right.
It’s not a coincidence that there’s been a gnawing feeling at the back of my mind, the single thought that I want to die. Like a soundtrack that plays anytime I stop drowning myself in stupid phone games and fictional universes. Everytime I have to think about reality, I can’t.
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I would take heart in the fact that Trump has, in the past, donated money to Hillary. During the election, there was so much criticism of him by conservatives, because they basically thought he was a donkey in elephant’s clothes, so to speak.
Imagine if Ted Cruz had been elected president. He might say nicer things about women and minorities. But on many issues he was way to the right of Trump. I mean, some of these nutters…
Anyhow, my point is, I think Trump came off a lot worse than he is. He says really reckless things, but I think (pray) that there is another side to him as well.
I was really depressed on the 9th, because I was blindsided by it, but I don’t even live in America. These things, you just can’t do all that much about them, just try and concentrate on your own bubble maybe.
Hugs
The political world turns. It always has and always will. You seem to be a bit insulated from the political transition that is unfolding. Try not to let what happens in Washington, DC affect you too much. Unless there’s an issue that affects you directly, don’t let it distract or divert you from the path that you’re on. I watch a fair amount of political coverage but, at a certain point, it’s time to turn the TV off and focus on the world in front of me.
Every single person where I work has been on edge – I’m pretty sure my supervisor was drinking bourbon in his office to take the edge off earlier today. So you aren’t alone there – there’s a whole basket of people who feel deplorable scattered all over the country. It’s like we’re looking into an abyss of sorts – some kind of seismic tension is building up in the mantle of the social world, and when it releases, California and Florida will probably sink into the ocean. Either that, or some pebbles will get displaced from a pile of rocks in Oklahoma. It’s hard to say.