I want to die so badly.. I’m just a pain as my parents call me.. That’s a new name haha..
There’s a tub of bleach waiting in the bathroom right in front of me right now.. My mom left it when she was fixing a stain.. It’s taunting me so much..
I.. I love how the people you would think you could trust and tell everything to and they’d always make you feel happy do the opposite for me.. I don’t even know if they love me..
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Not that I am against suicide, not at all, but – a lot of people have tried drinking bleach and it didn’t kill them; instead, it just made them super super sick. Just an fyi…
They love you. And if they don’t, somebody out there does. Don’t forget that.
No one ever reached out through the bleach to me.
Bleach will kill you slowly and extremely painfully, it’ll dissolve and destroy your internal organs, you’ll be hooked up to tubes for months if it doesn’t kill you and probably have multiple surgeries. Suicide is not a decision to take lightly or rashly-thoroughly research any method before proceeding.
Why seek your parents approval or love if they treat you badly? They sound like terrible people to me, you shouldn’t let them win by ending yourself-it won’t punish them. It’s best to move out and live with a trusted family member or if you’re able to, live on your own.
I’m not able to live by myself, and the rest of my family members live in another country.
Also the fact that everyone thinks my family’s happy. My parents won’t let me leave anyways.
And yeah, I decided to not do bleach.. I’m researching.
But I probably won’t do it just yet.. I don’t know.