I’m sad to say NO .. I’m sure when I’m dead I’ll have heaps of mourners turning up for a free feed and a free beer though … But while I’m alive ..NO ..
Yeah, those to dare come to a funeral but are never there in your life while you’re alive – i hate those people. they are pretenders- people who pretend to care- after the fact.
I do. I have two sisters that know most of what I have been through but not everything. One has been great and the typical big sister type but has been a really great listener… the other who I am so much closer to, when I broke down in tears regarding a legal matter I’d been dealing with and said “I can’t do this anymore.” actually said to me,”Well… the way things have been going for you so far I don’t see this ending well for you.”…..why the hell would you say something like that to someone in tears!? Neither sister knows how close I have actually come to committing suicide…neither has ever come out and asked me…but have given me that look like they want to.
I do have a friend who has asked me once at another time if I was feeling like hurting myself but she put it “do you want me to come get you?”. That was her way of saying are you thinking of hurting yourself… and I wasn’t even suicidal then just close to losing my shit and having a mental breakdown. I have told this friend and my sisters not much left in the reserve tank to go on but that was when things were really bleak.
But let’s face it…unless you come right out and say “yeah I thought real seriously about hanging myself last night.” How can you really know if they truly care? Nobody’s a mind reader and we are so good at pretending we are ok, we don’t always allow them the opportunity to show how much they care cause they may not even be aware we need them to. Not always the case but for some it is.
For some, yeah. For others like me, I can’t be clearer when telling people I’m utterly depressed and suicidal, but they do nothing, and they don’t care. Makes my depression even worse. All I know are shitty people around me 🙁
Im so depressed too. I have a sister who would be torn if i ever committed suicide. My mom and dad would be too. But no one knows how i feel. No one knows the heavy weight i carry on my shoulders every day. No one has been through what i have at this young age of 21. My heart can’t take it anymore and i just want to leave. I dont wanna live anymore. I feel like i cause so many problems. People tell me, it will get better, just give it time. But nothing has gotten better. In fact, it just keeps getting worse.
Reading what other people right on this website makes me want to stick around a little longer because some are going through worse then me and they are still trying.
I have my family and my husband who care about me and that’s why it’s all so complicated in my head atm.
Also the guilt of wanting to go and leave them is tearing me apart and so I do what I do best I’m slowly trying to push them away so hopefully it won’t hurt so much for us all.
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I have two, (my parents) maybe three. I’m still depressed though.
I’m sad to say NO .. I’m sure when I’m dead I’ll have heaps of mourners turning up for a free feed and a free beer though … But while I’m alive ..NO ..
Yeah, those to dare come to a funeral but are never there in your life while you’re alive – i hate those people. they are pretenders- people who pretend to care- after the fact.
I certainly do, but sometimes I inexplicably believe that I don’t.
Exactly what I would say except “inexplicably”!
I do. I have two sisters that know most of what I have been through but not everything. One has been great and the typical big sister type but has been a really great listener… the other who I am so much closer to, when I broke down in tears regarding a legal matter I’d been dealing with and said “I can’t do this anymore.” actually said to me,”Well… the way things have been going for you so far I don’t see this ending well for you.”…..why the hell would you say something like that to someone in tears!? Neither sister knows how close I have actually come to committing suicide…neither has ever come out and asked me…but have given me that look like they want to.
I do have a friend who has asked me once at another time if I was feeling like hurting myself but she put it “do you want me to come get you?”. That was her way of saying are you thinking of hurting yourself… and I wasn’t even suicidal then just close to losing my shit and having a mental breakdown. I have told this friend and my sisters not much left in the reserve tank to go on but that was when things were really bleak.
But let’s face it…unless you come right out and say “yeah I thought real seriously about hanging myself last night.” How can you really know if they truly care? Nobody’s a mind reader and we are so good at pretending we are ok, we don’t always allow them the opportunity to show how much they care cause they may not even be aware we need them to. Not always the case but for some it is.
For some, yeah. For others like me, I can’t be clearer when telling people I’m utterly depressed and suicidal, but they do nothing, and they don’t care. Makes my depression even worse. All I know are shitty people around me 🙁
Im so depressed too. I have a sister who would be torn if i ever committed suicide. My mom and dad would be too. But no one knows how i feel. No one knows the heavy weight i carry on my shoulders every day. No one has been through what i have at this young age of 21. My heart can’t take it anymore and i just want to leave. I dont wanna live anymore. I feel like i cause so many problems. People tell me, it will get better, just give it time. But nothing has gotten better. In fact, it just keeps getting worse.
Reading what other people right on this website makes me want to stick around a little longer because some are going through worse then me and they are still trying.
I hate it when people tell me “things will get better.” It hasn’t for me either, and I’ve been dealing with it longer than you’ve been alive. Sad…
Yes they care about me! They just don’t care a lot!!
Really whether people care about you or not, what’s really important is to care about yourself.
I know, but I don’t seem to like myself very much…
I have my family and my husband who care about me and that’s why it’s all so complicated in my head atm.
Also the guilt of wanting to go and leave them is tearing me apart and so I do what I do best I’m slowly trying to push them away so hopefully it won’t hurt so much for us all.