Hoping to read something that will take my mind off my own misery. Reading how worse off others are usually makes me feel better. I’ve shunned all family, friends and any ideas of personal growth in favor of getting stoned in my apartment every night. I don’t get anything out of socializing other than anxiety and panic so I stay home most days out of the month. I’m having trouble coming to grips with spending the rest of my life alone. If I stay healthy, I’ve got a solid 40 years left and I don’t even wanna bother.
“Why are you here on SP?”
I was told it was this great dating site, so came here to find true love
“Why are you depressed?”
depressed? I’m not depressed! I utterly unequivocally categorically deny and reject this blatant slander and defamation at my tiny handed person! and I will sue!
Now listen to me, I’ll say one thing to you people: I did not have relations with that female, I am not depressed, I am not suicidal, I am not a crook. I’m gonna say it again; I did not have sexual relations with that female, miss Jigglypuff! Next question,
“Wondering what everyone’s story is”
Turn on the TV, look out the window, check under a rock, there lies my story, nothing special
I’m here tonight because I feel ok, and I want to pass on my good vibes to someone that might benefit. Sometimes I’m on here because just like @redandpurple said, I can say what I really think here and it’s acceptable. It can feel isolating to be in such a dark place so much of the time. I’d prefer to sit in the dark with other people than sit in the dark alone.
Um because I searched up “im sorry im bi” and saw a post and saw here was entire website full of people with similar thoughts to mine and stories and i signed up and this is my REAL life, not my tumblr life.
I stumbled across this website while searching suicide letters (which ironically kept me going). The reason why I stayed was because I learnes I have ADHD – Inattentive. That FUCKED ME UP. So I write here how I feel, what I think, because It has been running my life and the more I research the more pain i feel despite how numb the meds make me that is one thing i feel all the time now. So until i no longer need to vent here I’ll try to stay afloat throught this website.
I used to come here to read others’ stories. They made me feel better when I was really depressed. Yes…it’s weird. My story? Nothing special. Loving, overprotective parents. Good life, no major illnesses (epilepsy, but it’s well-controlled through meds ). I’ve just always had a really negative self-image. I’m fat. I’m not enough. I suck at my job. Etc. Etc. Haven’t had a job in a year, the last 5 before that? Fucking retail. I used to be able to support my family. Trying to reinvent myself…as a photographer and, maybe, some form of social service. I really like helping people…and I’ve learned thru experience there are many in the field who have no fucking business being there. Sorry for the rant…
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There is only one of me, and very many of everyone else.
To find support with like-minded people, and occasionally ask about suicide methods when those episodes strike.
SP is like a Facebook where you can say what is REALLY on your mind and not have friends unfollow you for saying depressing things.
And to share music. 🙂
Hoping to read something that will take my mind off my own misery. Reading how worse off others are usually makes me feel better. I’ve shunned all family, friends and any ideas of personal growth in favor of getting stoned in my apartment every night. I don’t get anything out of socializing other than anxiety and panic so I stay home most days out of the month. I’m having trouble coming to grips with spending the rest of my life alone. If I stay healthy, I’ve got a solid 40 years left and I don’t even wanna bother.
“Why are you here on SP?”
I was told it was this great dating site, so came here to find true love
“Why are you depressed?”
depressed? I’m not depressed! I utterly unequivocally categorically deny and reject this blatant slander and defamation at my tiny handed person! and I will sue!
Now listen to me, I’ll say one thing to you people: I did not have relations with that female, I am not depressed, I am not suicidal, I am not a crook. I’m gonna say it again; I did not have sexual relations with that female, miss Jigglypuff! Next question,
“Wondering what everyone’s story is”
Turn on the TV, look out the window, check under a rock, there lies my story, nothing special
You are so weird. I like you.
ROFFL!
Why are you here, _darkness?
I’m here tonight because I feel ok, and I want to pass on my good vibes to someone that might benefit. Sometimes I’m on here because just like @redandpurple said, I can say what I really think here and it’s acceptable. It can feel isolating to be in such a dark place so much of the time. I’d prefer to sit in the dark with other people than sit in the dark alone.
Um because I searched up “im sorry im bi” and saw a post and saw here was entire website full of people with similar thoughts to mine and stories and i signed up and this is my REAL life, not my tumblr life.
I stumbled across this website while searching suicide letters (which ironically kept me going). The reason why I stayed was because I learnes I have ADHD – Inattentive. That FUCKED ME UP. So I write here how I feel, what I think, because It has been running my life and the more I research the more pain i feel despite how numb the meds make me that is one thing i feel all the time now. So until i no longer need to vent here I’ll try to stay afloat throught this website.
I used to come here to read others’ stories. They made me feel better when I was really depressed. Yes…it’s weird. My story? Nothing special. Loving, overprotective parents. Good life, no major illnesses (epilepsy, but it’s well-controlled through meds ). I’ve just always had a really negative self-image. I’m fat. I’m not enough. I suck at my job. Etc. Etc. Haven’t had a job in a year, the last 5 before that? Fucking retail. I used to be able to support my family. Trying to reinvent myself…as a photographer and, maybe, some form of social service. I really like helping people…and I’ve learned thru experience there are many in the field who have no fucking business being there. Sorry for the rant…
Nah, rants are fine. Sometimes I come to SP to rant too.