people are shitty, its something ive learned all too well. but sometimes people are extra shitty ad are incapable of understanding what youre going through. but you are strong, and deep down, you must have motivation to keep on living, because youre still here right? having passion doesnt necessarily mean that what you love is something inspiring or something you do all the time. sometimes we can be passionate about small the small things in our life. even when things seem dark and dreary, we all have that one thing that doesnt make us feel worse when were stuck in one those moods. i think my passion is reading. i love it, but i dont overly talk about my joy for books and am not nearly as avid of a reader as i used to be. im sure you have a passion too, you just might have not realised it yet. and even if no one is physically there for you to ride through the journey, just know you have all of us here on SP. we get you, we know how it feels, and yes, we care.