im at my friends house right now. its 6 in the morning i still havent gone to sleep. hes asleep i had fun i guess. i still dont feel right. i dont know where its coming from. ive never been bullied or jumped or robbed or anything like that. i think i have friends, but i feel like im annoying to them (hopefully the extreme trust issues), i have two brothers who i am pretty close with, i have both my parents although theyre divorced but they still live close enough to each other for me to still live with both of them. i dont know whats wrong with me i know my family loves and cares about me but i still feel like im all by myself. the only reason im alive today is because i dont want to hurt my family. ive seen some of the storys on this site of people being depressed for being bullied, robbed, jumped and i understand why theyre depressed, but why am i depressed? ive lived in a middle class home in middle class suburb of atlanta, ive never had to go through basically any of the stuff others have yet i still feel alone, i still dont want to be here. i spent my new years eve crying because i was all by myself. no one invited me anywhere. no one even attempted to invite me anywhere or make plans. no one even asked me what i was doing leading up to nye. i know people love me but i think everyone hates me. i dont know what to do, im so confused with everything.
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People failing to ask you to do something on nye is not a commentary on your worth. I know it feels like it, but only you can decide your self worth.
This year, work on expanding your circle of friends. Next year, ask someone to hang out with you. Keep asking until someone says yes.
No people don’t hate you. It’s up to you to fight those thoughts. Every time you think people don’t like you, you have to tell yourself it isn’t true. Multiple times a day if necessary, for as long as you have those thoughts. Yes, it sucks.