am i alone

im at my friends house right now. its 6 in the morning i still havent gone to sleep. hes asleep i had fun i guess. i still dont feel right. i dont know where its coming from. ive never been bullied or jumped or robbed or anything like that. i think i have friends, but i feel like im annoying to them (hopefully the extreme trust issues), i have two brothers who i am pretty close with, i have both my parents although theyre divorced but they still live close enough to each other for me to still live with both of them.  i dont know whats wrong with me i know my family loves and cares about me but i still feel like im all by myself. the only reason im alive today is because i dont want to hurt my family. ive seen some of the storys on this site of people being depressed for being bullied, robbed, jumped and i understand why theyre depressed, but why am i depressed? ive lived in a middle class home in middle class suburb of atlanta, ive never had to go through basically any of the stuff others have yet i still feel alone, i still dont want to be here. i spent my new years eve crying because i was all by myself. no one invited me anywhere. no one even attempted to invite me anywhere or make  plans. no one even asked me what i was doing leading up to nye. i know people love me but i think everyone hates me. i dont know what to do, im so confused with everything.