I’m 18 and I’m a girl.
My life is not as bad as the way the way I perceive it.
But compared to my dream life it’s quite
Dull and disappointing.
I love singing and I’m a good songwritter.
It’s what I would wish to successfully do for a living.
But it won’t happen. Because I’m not good enough as a person.You need to beautiful with a perfect body and an even better personality to get people to like you and believe in you.What I’m working with is simply not enough.
So I hope,pray and hope to see some kind of a miracle happen.But it never does.It appears that my creator is tired of my shit and telling me to move on. But to what?
I’m already at my second college. Got expelled from the first one at 16 for failing all classes.I’m very smart but also very unorganized and lazy.I would just skip all classes you know.
I’m doing the same thing here. I can’t help it.
I refuse to spend the next years of my life boyfriend-less , with no real friends , depressed with nothing to hope for. This can’t possibly be all there is to life.I don’t want to go throught with it. I’m exhausted.
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You said you’re a singer and songwriter.
Would you like to share some of your music with us?
I’ve done it several times and people here are all very kind. Maybe you’ll find a like-minded audience.
I know how it feels when you want to do something you love, but you know that there are many people out there who are better at it than you are.
I love drawing and making up stories, so I decided to try and draw a manga.
But I gave up because I thought that I wasn’t improving at al.
BIG MISTAKE!
I was improving, but I just didn’t see it. But I don’t have to motvation to start drawing again because of my depression and suicidal thoughts.
But yeah, let’s go back to your post
I don’t believe that you need to be beautiful and have a perfect body in order to become popular.
This is just my opinion, but only a few people on earth have a perfect body.
Famous people often do surgeries, so their bodies aren’t naturel.
I will also recommend you to just keep singing and writing songs!
Don’t be like me, don’t become a Kur0-Nek0.
(What I mean is to not give up like I gave up on drawing. Because you will most likely regret it later on.)
About the school part.
I still go to school too (I’m 17) and I know how boring it can be. Especially if you have trouble socialising with your classmates.
But I still recommend you to not skip classes.
Yes, it’s boring, but it’s also important to be there.
Failling classes is ofcourse not a good thing. Why do you fail them? Do you not stydu enough? Do you not understand what the teacher is saying? I know you said that you’re pretty smart, and that’s great! But sadly enough being smart isn’t all you need in order to pass classes. You need to study, and make sure that you can get atleast enough points in order to pass.
Oh well, I wrote more than I expected to lol
I hope that I didn’t sound like some nagging person >.<
And please remember that you're not alone anymore.
We are here for you 🙂
Greets Kur0-Nek0
I feel you. I don’t see much point in anything atm either.