yeah… what can i say? we are are not satisfied.
freaks like me, hell yea, we are gonna keep on moving, and nope. we wont fit your damn patterns.
oh family. oh neighbours. oh people on the street. voices in my head. sometimes it seems the whole world is against me. and you know something, i think it really it is. but that doesnt bother me at all, i like it. and no, i dont hate mankind, neighter the people who treat me like shit, cause i can stop feeling that… that man or woman over there, who keeps vomiting tons and tons of crap in my ears, trying to put me in the place i should be – it’s just a fucking walking peace of meat just like me. but the diference is, that some people, really understand what is to have a soul. others think having a soul is following the paths drawned by the others for they find they’re souls. and they keep saying all of the bad names that maybe fit my personality and my behavior, because i’m not doing what they expect me to. cause i’m not satisfying they’re egoic wantings and needings. and i must say, i love it all.
i mean, thank you everybody. thank you all the haters, thank for all the crazy people who used the mask as the ones who where on my side trying to help, but that really fucked me, in the first place. you are just fucked as me. i really love you all, as you’re all part of this amazing universe in which we live, and you are just fucked as me. no matter how rich or sucessful, or whathever, we live in the same putrid society. but most just choose to be blind, and that makes feel sad, deep from my heart. so yeah, keep doing your jobs, your duties, your moral schemes so you can think youre a good person and don’t have nightmares when you go to sleep. cause i like the nightmares, and they make me write good stories when im awake. but thats none of your business, as people commonly say.
thank you for all the brilliantly stupid attempts to change my reality. thank you for putting me in the psych ward three times in one single year. thank you for all the screaming over the street, thank you for all the threats, the intimidation, all the playing. thank you for all the difamation (yeah, the nazi pedophile and rapist and torture apologizer and women seller… does someone already got all those tags together? even though i suffered a whole year due to it, now its fun. and sad, cause is people trying to intensify their life by using a really bad taste method, like hurting others. but i understand, they were all misleaded somewhere, and they didn’t understand the thing, or they choose deliberately to fuck me, but even then, they’re just iluding themselves, and will probably end up in a mess soon or later). but now, go find something else to do. i must say, there aint no lesson to be learned. as a matter of fact, everything i say here is just a bunch of metaphors, cause yeah, we are so damn primitive that we keep using this thing called language to… enchain our bodies. and we are so damn cowards that we like to enchain our bodies, cause we are so damn afraid of freedom.
and at last, but not least, thanks for everyone in this site. i couldn’t go through the problems in my life without this place. its truly inspiring all the struggle you all describe here. and don’t ever give up.
”it’s just a ride.”