it’s the hardest thing when you realize you’ve got to let go and literally everything in you is not wanting you to.
three full years of compassion, honesty, loyalty, and love from my best friend and now, for a month, he has not been sure about me anymore.
I don’t know how to let go when all I want to do is communicate with him, tell him I care, etc.
somehow I need to force myself to just not bother. I have no idea how this is going to work..
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Best friends hah mine walked with zero care so cold best friends are at least to me. The word Friend is such a small word but big meaning. Your user name 75 does this mean your about 43 years old I was 25 when my best friend walked when my mom basically lied and took everything from me just for her house I’m 26 now I got no friends I feel like I don’t have a mom I’ve been single my whole life been broke been screwed owe a lot of money hah I can’t wait to leave all thanks to this fuckin house and friends that friend that left me has everything with ease and no trouble is married has her own place is younger than me but one of the cool people better to stay away from them
hey, I’m actually seventeen! the “75” has a different meaning, ha. this guy wasn’t only my best friend, he was my boyfriend for the past three years. he’s actually a United States Marine now and him and I had a really good relationship. all the sudden though, my own fault I think.. I broke a promise.. and now he hasn’t been sure about me. he told he just doesn’t know about this anymore and he’s thinking things through, but anytime I talk to him nowadays.. 85% of the time I don’t know who I’m talking to. and, on the subject of your mother, a year ago my grandmother (who I was living with at the time) kicked me out and didn’t give me any of my things back, NOT A THING. took me off her insurance asap and things just got extremely bad. and then got moved into a house with my mom who I’ve never really had a good relationship with, so I don’t feel like I have a mom either. I’m sorry for everything that’s going on in your situation. Life can really sucks for all ages, all around. Thing about life is it doesn’t choose just a catergory; we can all suffer and hurt immensely. I’m sorry.
Oh so your seventeen I’m sorry things are going like that for you to I was 17 when I was starting to become suicidal lonely and depressed I mean I’ve always been lonely. My dad passed away when I was 17 all his debts his job fell on me and my mom pushed it for it ever since just to keep this fuckin house that we can’t afford it is so hard being broke at 26 not able to do anything and I live in Connecticut so you need a car and my car keeps braking down I beg for the car to not brake I literally beg because I can’t fix it I can’t buy a new car. I’m originally from NYC but I’ve been lonely abused harshly bullied in school but I never thought of suicide not once until after my dad died not because he died but because I realized where my life was when I looked at my life style how socially off I am with people all I did was work work work got scammed 3 times got nothing my mom is just for the house nothing else is a concern for her what’s wrong with these people I have been in love but nothing came of it just anxiety of jealousy because you see that girl with someone else. And I figured it was your boyfriend. Your life is hard after reading your reply twice it makes sense. I just realised this is the first time you ever replied to me hahaha 🙂 I think you were around last year to.
I’m fairly new here actually 🙂 and wow, I cannot say I know how that feels as I have not went through everything that you have, but it must be hard and I am sorry. I was abused also, wasn’t bullied at school but was with my family. My problems started when I was 10 and doctors still say I’m never going to get better and I’m gonna have to stay on meds the rest of my life, so that’s whatever. Have some severe PTSD which results in the most horrible flashbacks every single day. My depression has been worse, but right now I’m kinda looking up. Idk, sometimes I feel like I’m alive but I’m not living, if that makes sense. Everything has felt empty for the longest. People are cruel, also. This world is a cruel place, in general. I’m really sorry you have been and are still having a rough time. I know some on here don’t like hearing things like this- “the positive things”.. but I hope your situation looks up eventually. Life is so tough, I’m only 17 and I totally get that I haven’t gone out into the real world yet, but I see people who have, who are struggling, who are hurting, and it makes my heart hurt for them. If I could take away people’s hurt, somehow, then I would.. and anyone I meet, I try not to ever make them feel lonely. No one should ever have to feel alone or broken.
Really your new oh I coulda sworn you were around last year but anyways welcome to the site. PTSD wow I’m sorry that you have to go through that. I have been traumatized from my abusing and what I went through in school and at home. I’m soft I’m easily jumped on I’m not tough but I have balls and what I mean is today I don’t care for nothing if I get killed none of it but I’m.still soft. But everyone takes things differently and I know what anxiety and flashbacks are like but I can only imagine what they are like for you. This world is cruel it’s over crowded to many and no room. I hate what I read on the paper of everything. I don’t mind the positive stuff especially if it makes you strong if I can take a 1/4 of your pain not all of it because that would be too much to stack on but 1/4 of it id do it to help unfortunately it’s like you said life doesn’t only chose a category but I wonder how the bad life seeks out its pray hmmm