Today will be my first and only attempt. I hope it’s going to work. Each day is just getting worse and worse.
Good-bye.
Or not.
I got everything out, ready to do it. Hell, I even wrote a note to say my farewells. But I couldn’t. I couldn’t bring myself to actually do it.
While I was preparing for my suicide, I had many thoughts running through my head. Too many.
Maybe I’m just too weak.
Thinking about it now, about my plan… I feel I’m just getting myself closer to actually doing it.
The next time will be more successful.
But for now,
Hello.
PS. if anyone has any suggestions on what to do if your own family triggers a depression/panic attack/anxiety, please help. I would truly appreciate it.
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Dont do anything stupid, you could say I care. I don’t want anymore people around me dying, it isn’t pleasant. Talk to me if it helps I’ll be here
I truly appreciate your gesture.
I almost did something very stupid, but I guess something is holding me back… even if it’s just for a moment.
Your own family?? Damn that sucks.
Is there a friend you can stay with?
<3
Weakness has nothing to do with it. That’s beat yourself up talk.
Parental triggers are as old as time. Popular, but not necessarily good, coping mechanisms:
Drugs
Rock Music
Running Away
Spending all your time at a friend’s house
Hanging out at the mall
Studying at the library
Sports
Drama as in theatre
Drama as in dish out more drama to your parents than they give you
Hell’s Angeles
Tap Dance
Music Lessons
Obsessing About a Girl\Boy\Aardvarrkki
Time Travel
Space Travel
Hiding in the Attic\Basement
Military Service
Hotrods
Gardening
Emancipation
“if anyone has any suggestions on what to do if your own family triggers a depression/panic attack/anxiety, please help. I would truly appreciate it.”
Cut them the FUCK out of your life.
Keep yourself separated from that person as much as possible until things blow over then try to talk to them if your comfortable with that…or just phase them out like I did with some family…of course this is much easier to do while not living under the same roof, and not sure what your situation is as far as that goes.