For a long time I felt really bad. I was sure killing myself is the right choice, but recently I don’t feel sad I have no better days. I just feel nothing. It reminds me of times when I started taking antidepressants I still had suicidal thoughts but it didn’t made me calm like before. ‘Before’ whenever I was stressed I thought “Hey, I can always kill myself” or “Don’t worry you’ll be dead soon. No one will care then” and i calmed down.
Now I stare at trees imagining myself hanging on them not sure if i should do it. I don’t have the strenght to kill myself, but I don’t have the strenght to stay alive either. I had planned suicide but now i don’t even know if i’ll be able to realize this plan. At least before i was sure.
Sorry my english is not the best today. I hope i make sense
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I understand