Ramblings of a slightly insaine person

So helping you guys makes me feel a little bit better. Even if that means not sleeping until 2 in the morning as I try to stay awake to see your next message. I want to help you and let you know that you are not alone and that people understand what you are going through. but I am so tired. I help you and I’m dead inside half the time. i end up laying in bed not bored, not sad, not anything. i lay there and stare at the ceiling and just feel nothing at all. just static and dead. i see the new posts every day and i want to reply to them. i want to read them and understand them and offer anything i can. but i am just so tired. i didn’t even go to work today. i woke up and couldn’t bring myself to even move. i ate 1 meal today and just laid in my bed. i just cant explain this fatigue i have. its in my very soul. so yeah. i slept. and now its 0115 and I’m tired but not physically tired to go to sleep and i have no one to talk to and yeah. gonna go now. I’m just rambling anyways.