I am about to be 22. I already feel ancient. Maybe the pain I have endured has made me feel older than I really am.. in my head I am basically 100. All the life was sucked from me..
I hate the idea of becoming old.
I hate living passed one’s prime.
Why live when life will only go down hill from here? To slowly die and become inferior.
I don’t want to become any more inferior than I already am. I can’t even imagine becoming 30. I can’t handle becoming a feeble old man.. white hair, a degrading body.. where’s the appeal?
I don’t want to live without something to make me feel fulfilled but the only thing I had was stripped from me 5 years ago.
Why live “just for the sake of it”? Living “just because” is so painfully pointless..
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no certainty in believing life will only be a downward spiral from here on out. perhaps it seems pointless now, but maybe your purpose right now is to find what makes you fufilled again. maybe it wont be as great last time. maybe it’ll be better. i don’t know. hope i haven’t offended you. this comment also didn’t post the first time, frustratingly so. this is the shortened version, sorry
You’re making me feel really old. Stop ! 😛
I don’t know if this will help but just keep going, if you look hard enough you will find something that will make you feel fulfilled, it may be hard to find something but there must be something you can find even if you don’t know it. Keep going your are physically young.
22 ain’t shit.
Life will continue to be a struggle until the day you die, and you’re not even half-way there yet.
Expect another 2+ decades (or more) of hardship, misery and strife. Ha! You thought you were getting off that easily?
Nope.
Maybe life will get better after your pubes turn gray. Who knows.
Only 2 more decades ? Hell, then maybe I should wait around … not much longer 😛
22 is really old mate….
My advice to anyone on here in their teens or early twenties is that maybe there’s still a chance to still turn it around. Your still young and fit at that age. Plently of time to turn it around.
I dunno wtf happened. I’d written a really long comment, and it didn’t post. Sigh.
Anyway, my point was simply: It’s not about age, it’s about how you spend it.
Treat everything you want to do that makes you uncomfortable like a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. More often than not, this turns out to be the case.