I once saw a Simpsons chapter where Moe Szyslak says to himself that there must be someone out there for someone like himself, and that everyone has a significant other somewhere in the world. Then right after that, we see how his significant other is about to hang herself up because of loneliness. For some reason, I’m beginning to think that the same thing has happened to me.
I’m living right now trapped in a social circle where everyone has found their significant other. Little by little, everyone is hooking up with someone; everyone but me.
Maybe Moe was wrong. Maybe not everyone is destined to meet their significant other; maybe some people don’t even have one. Whichever the case is, I’m one of those 2 types. The past few days I’ve been feeling lonelier and lonelier because of this. Prom is getting closer each day, and I’m one of the few fuck ups that don’t have anyone to go with. I don’t even have the will or the guts or whatever it is to go. Even if some friends are there, I just can’t make it.
All I want is for this semester to finally end, so I can leave and start from zero (once again) until my past catches up to me and I start regretting my decisions once again.
Sometimes I wish people wouldn’t take me for granted. I wish people would look at me as someone indispensable or irreplaceable. Sometimes I wish I could find my “other half” to feel complete, finally after 18 years. But at the same time, sometimes I wish people would just forget I was ever alive. Oh the irony…
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One of the things about a relationship, is that a lot of the time, you don’t see the bad times all that often on the outside. There’s nothing wrong with being in a relationship, and nothing wrong with not being in one.
I’m sorry you feel so lonely. I have yet to be in an actual physical relationship with a person, myself. Wish I had some better advice for you bud.
Never pin your hopes of happiness on anyone else, they will only ever disappoint you and not live up to your expectations even if you do meet someone who makes you happy. You have to be content in yourself first, trust me most of the peeps in your circle will end up breaking up with their partners or are already having problems, there are very few people who are truly happy with someone else, you’ve got your freedom..enjoy it!