I would have died a LONG time ago. I don’t deserve life. I’m eating food that should be eaten by people less fortunate than me. If this world loses me in the next year, it’ll keep going like nothing happened. I’m only 1 out of 7 billion people (and rising). What the hell am I to the world? Nothing.
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I’ve had that same thought about food. I feel like everything I take – food, water, air, medicine, electricity, a home, a car, gas for the car… it’s all resources that someone more deserving should have. I feel guilty for living.
same, while at the same time im feeling judged by the people around me who are always looking to improve their lives, as in a better home, higher paying job, exciting vacation. i can almost hear them thinking “what the hell is wrong with this guy, no aspirations whatsoever” i do have my own but im too sad to make them a reality so in turn its just guilt for using up the minimum amount to keep on living.
i just realized ive been feeling guilt pretty much everyday for the past….forever
I’m sorry you feel that way. 🙁
In my case, it’s disability preventing me from being able to do things like career and housekeeping. I was going back to school part time and doing great but then I learned public assistance counts that as “income” and would take away my assistance… so now I just rot. And then they blame us for “living on the system” and make us feel like we don’t deserve the food, shelter, etc we get. Really doesn’t help.
Whatever the reason, it sucks feeling like you don’t even deserve to live.
You are something. You do deserve food even when there are other people struggling to get food. You are worth something and do mean something. One day you will find a person who will see you as you and see that you mean something. Stay strong.