Everything depends on money. I’m broke. I have $52.32 in my account. My meeting with my friend and his sons has been pushed to next Monday, and I have to make it this week, and however long after that when I start my job, and however long after that when I get paid. If money or the concept of money didn’t exist, I would have close to 75% of my anxiety erased. I worry about money all the time. I’m still a tiny little kid inside worrying about what we were going to do for food. It was my older sister, my mom, and I that had to be fed on a part time job. That part time job also had to provide a shelter, water, a place to sleep, a place to take a shower, a place to go to the bathroom, lights, blankets for cold nights… etc etc etc. My dad could have helped, but nope. Only thing he cared about was his comfortable lifestyle and his young girlfriend. I’m 20. I still live with my mom. I haven’t had a job since early 2015. How pathetic am I.
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I feel you so much, if I had money probably around 80% of all my worries would vanish. Money is what makes me want to die more then anything, my mother use to always say how money won’t make me happy but I don’t care about being happy I care about not being stressed. Which is all I ever am. I’m 21, never had a real job, I know how it feels.
If it helps you, I have less than 28 pounds. I know it probably doesn’t. Money is always the problem and always will be. I wonder how the world would be without money and greed, when everything would belong to everyone – calm. Every utopia is a distopia but it’s still nice to imagine.
Yeah, the world would be the image of heaven. It would be so much more accepting and loving. Money sucks!
Human greed sucks. There would be no money without greed.
Greed, Lust, PRIDE, Envy… suck!
Welll, mostly greed, pride, and envy
I love you. Money makes me want to die more than anything too! If I could just live somewhere that provides my needs and I don’t have to work all day, just to survive the night, and work all day the next, I would… be… okay. I wish we could hit the rewind button on society. Everything is about money. It discriminates people into different groups. Rich, middle class, poor. The more money you have, the better quality of life you have. People say, “Don’t let the situation you were born into determine where you’ll end up.” So as to say, just because you were born poor, if you pick yourself up off your ass and work, you can be rich. Umm, no. Whoever says that are lying to themselves and others. It is so fucking hard to jump from one social class to the next. The rich control the world, and it will be this way until Mother Nature has dealt with so much shit from us that it ends of species.
I assume you were replying to me? If so I totally agree, those who say, “Just get off your ass and work hard and you can be rich” as if by some miracle anyone can be rich by just working hard is completely ignorant and foolish not to mention lying to themselves. The more money you have the better your lifestyle will be and the more relaxed you will be. The less you have, the more stressed you’ll end up being about bills and the future. Not to mention if your in a relationship or married having no money is not good at all as it will make you irritable and angry over small things like someone buying something that is to expensive which causes a shit ton of arguments to occur. Growing up I remember my Father and Mother constantly arguing about money, always stressed, and yet they have the audacity to say that money can’t buy happiness. As the old saying goes, “I’d rather be crying in a Corvette then on a Bicycle.”
I wish i could help you there…
but i’m kinda in the same situation here
except i’m 25
🙁
worked for a couple of years
made a certain sum
then had to leave that job for reasons out of my hands
so since then this sum is dwindling
i’m “working” so hard so i could “get work”
it’s sad i know
but it doesn’t make u pathetic in any way
don’t worry
u just keep on trying & looking for a job
& since u’ve already found something,
please be patient
it will be a tough week
but it’ll pass
okay
tc
<3
But then, at the end of this week, I’ll be freaking out, full of anxiety about starting the job. Ahh! Fuck my brain!
it’s alright…
what are u worried about regarding that job?
What if I suck, what if one of them gets hurt or killed, what if I get in a car crash with them, what if I don’t follow the “rules”… etc etc etc
what if none of that happens at all 🙂
look,
I know u probably got bored of me already
& I know i’m repeating myself over & over again
but what can i do
when these things i say
are what i believe to be
the main concepts that govern life
…
u are not “required” [by God] to succeed
or to never make a mistake
or even to not make too many mistakes
u are required to “try your outmost best”
give it everything you have
everything you can possibly give
i’d say
take that week you have as preparation period
[1]
write down the rules in a piece of paper
make several copies
& keep a couple with u at all times
& revise them
make it a routine so that
when u start the job
every time before you go
u revise them over & over
when u’r there
think carefully but calmly [without fear / stress] before each action / activity you’re about to do
ask yourself, will this be okay, is it acceptable, does it break the rules
[2]
if not sure at any time
or feel uncomfortable
call / contact the parent
it will not mean that you don’t know what u’r doing
on the contrary
it will mean that u are caring, respectful & responsible
[3]
u’r worried about them getting hurt
okay
know where the surrounding hospitals, clinics & pharmacies are
[make & print a map if u wish]
what are their emergency numbers
[make a list on paper AND save them to ur phone [if possible]]
think about the different situations that could happen
anything & everything u’r afraid of
[falling / tripping / slipping / cuts / bruises / sharp objects / fire /… etc.]
write them all down, big or small
list them
then, make counter actions for each of them
[ Research & Think
of different ways you could act to prevent these things from happening
AND
ways to act if they do happen
]
[I could help you with that if you wish]
[4]
when u’r there keep them both in ur sight at all time
& don’t get distracted by anything [phone/ messaging / this site 🙂 … they are the one & only point of focus for you during that time of the day… find a way to fill up ur time while one or both of them are with u… when u’r done & their parent is back, u’r free to do whatever u want]
[5]
driving… no problem
know ur destination & how u’ll get there before u’r in the car
maybe make a simple map on paper
so u don’t need to use gps or look at a screen everynow & then
make sure everyone has seat belts on [including you 😀 ]
preferably keep them both in the back seats
be careful but calm [they are not contradictory]
stay in the slow lane as much as possible
stop [or at least slow down] & look before intersections & round curbs
don’t take any calls / read/respond to messages
& if possible, get an ear piece for ur phone just incase u MUST call someone
& just incase
always have a charged cell phone + its charger [if possible]
have the emergency map & contact list mentioned above
& a first aid kit [if possible]
take that week to learn about first aid
u’ll find lots of videos & articles about this
practice [at least in ur head]
it will benefit u ur entire life
not just for this job
[6]
Please don’t take offense to this 🙁
but I think it would be useful if u practice through out this week
to be careful with words… u know
so u won’t say something u shouldn’t say if u happen to get angry
or if something happens that gets to ur nerves
[7]
reasearch in general
any tips about that job
i’m sure u’ll find plenty
[8]
research / think about
different things u can do with them
to fill the time
games / card games / video games [if u have any]
anything that could work
maybe even make a weekly schedule
so that these things are divided through out the week
& they wouldn’t get bored
[I think the parent would appreciate it if you could involve a few educational games everynow & then… but u’ll have to use ur smarts to be able to convince them to actually play them 😀 ]
[9]
consider them ur own little brothers
so no matter how annoying / problematic things get
try your best to be calm, friendly & loving
they’re teenagers, they can’t help themselves 😀
[10]
finally…
made mistakes
something terrible happened
no problem
u’r a human being
we make mistakes
& we cause terrible things to happen
& sometimes terrible things just happen if we don’t cause them
call / contact the parent
calmly & respectfully explain what happened
apologize [if mistaken]
& know that the result is in God’s hands alone
so do not worry about anything
—
i’m sure if u follow all the above notes
specially the [8], [9] & [10]
they will love you in no time
& at the same time you won’t be anxious or worried
because u know u are prepared
& that you’r giving this ur 110 percent
& therefore
you won’t suck
even if u make mistakes
or even if, in worst case scenario, things don’t work out well
u’ll know u did ur best
🙂
okay?
I don’t have much more money than you rn. I’m turning 24 this yr and never had a job, only a tiny bit of work experience a few yrs ago. Also don’t like money. Ppl who are poor get treated like shit, simply because they don’t have money/ don’t have much money. Gah, how stupid.
i’m sorry u’r in this situation 🙁
praying for u…
Money is just a tool, the real evil is greed. Rich people who hoard their money imbalancing the economy and employers who underpay and retailers who overcharge. Value of things fluctuate according to market. Top brand items are actually limited in number so they can sell it for higher price, brand bags are actually burned and destroyed for limitations. Can you imagine wasting so much material and harming the environment just to sell something at a higher price? GREED. People put too much value on all the wrong and shallow things.