even throwing myself into everything i could and exercising and eating well and trying to think happy thoughts and caring about myself and trying to convince myself that others care for me and now im
back
in
this
fucking
pit
fuck this world and this therapists useless advice i dont have enough energy to climb back out
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Trying too hard doesn’t seem to be a long term solution. It just seems to lead to burnouts. Least you tried though, eh? I wanted to be one of those success stories turning my life around with exercise, nutrition, self-care, positivity. Basically I wanted to be something I’m not. I think I just have shitty genes and shitty circumstances. Maybe some of the good habits will stick though? It doesn’t have to be all or nothing.
So don’t. Stay there. I’m lying in my pit for the last few months and it’s rather comfortable, I need to tell you. No need to make yourself do something if it’s pointless, now is it?