I was supposed to die today. I wanted to die today because there was a lot of symmetry connected to June 4th for me. But, that’s not going to happen. I want to live another day. I want to see if I’m strong enough to live another day.
I can relate to this. I was supposed to die on my birthday, for the exact same reason: symmetry. I even had a post about it and used that very word. Ultimately I decided I was not quite ready yet. I was a bit sad to give up the symmetry. I mean, what if I die later anyway, and then on a much less meaningful day? But I realized that the symmetry aspect wouldn’t matter very much anyway. It’s not like people left behind will feel less pain on account of the symmetry, and once I’m dead who knows if I will even notice? I’m glad you chose to fight another day. All the best to you
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That’s great that you recognized that and took the positive step. Happy for you.
I’m thankful & grateful to be reading this from you
Only “another day” is far far much less than what I hope & pray for you…
but for now, I’m more than grateful for it
<3
Please do stay
Good for you!!
I can relate to this. I was supposed to die on my birthday, for the exact same reason: symmetry. I even had a post about it and used that very word. Ultimately I decided I was not quite ready yet. I was a bit sad to give up the symmetry. I mean, what if I die later anyway, and then on a much less meaningful day? But I realized that the symmetry aspect wouldn’t matter very much anyway. It’s not like people left behind will feel less pain on account of the symmetry, and once I’m dead who knows if I will even notice? I’m glad you chose to fight another day. All the best to you