So last night I was at this party. I drank too much, pretended I was happy, danced and had a great time, but then things got worst, just like any other night. I got desperate, I needed to find a knife. I looked everywhere, and when I finally found one in the kitchen my best friend started following me, and tried to stop me. She then eventually needed to leave, so I went in to the bathroom alone and found a pair of scissors, and right when I was about to do it, a person knocked on the door. I needed to be alone, just for one second but this guy wouldn’t stop knocking. I opened it, I needed to. He has stopped me from doing it on this other party, and he was about to do the same thing yesterday. Everything is a blur, I don’t remember much but he was talking in a loud voice, I tried to say stuff like ”Leave me alone” ”You don’t understand” but he wouldn’t let me be. At this point a lot of people had heard us screaming and it was just, too much. So now so many people knows and it’s school tomorrow. I don’t know what to do, I feel so, I don’t know, I really don’t know. I hate that people now know, so many people and, they know. And they care. Later that night this guy and I talked about how I feel, and he said that if I won’t tell my mom how bad I am doing this week, he will come to my house and tell my mom personally. It can’t happen, and I can’t tell. I am going to Germany next week, and my mom won’t let me do that if she knows how I am really doing. I know she won’t. I don’t know what to do. It’s just too much. And people care, too many people care. I can’t.
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If you actually talk to your parents Maybe they would try to find help for you. Honestly that person seems to care for you, and I’m not sure what triggered you but that is a very violent trigger you had. Please seek help talk to your therapist don’t suffer in silence.