Sometime you just have to be numb.
You catch you other half doing things like motivation of another women body when the one right beside him hates herself and her image.
numb to the fact of no matter what you say it will be twist into it’s all my fault.
numb to the fact my feelings don’t matter
numb the fact that no one cares
sometime numb is the best feeling you can have……
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Sometimes being numb is the only sensation left on your body, Ive been living with this feeling for the past 3 years and all I can say is that you eventually get used to it or act to change this downward spiral.
Feeling numb is a double edged sword.
Although it’s a reprieve from feeling the daily agony and sadness. I think it’s also an invisible killer to the brain like cancer spreading internallly.
When the numbness has subsided, it can be almost confusing to feel anything else but sadness after.
Even happy momemts when they seldom arrive , feel almost alien like.
So i go through the motions li!e an actor, remembering from memory the right responses i’m supposed to make.
Then when the moment has passed, i am almost happy to feel numb again.
I’m sorry if that’s irrelevant to what you are saying. That’s just my feelings on being numb at this point / moment.
I know.