I know it’s the stupidest thing ever. Doesn’t matter, if you believe God or not just do it, or better not, come down here, and operate on me, and rip these son of bitches out of here, and even better, kill me by ripping my heart out or something. Pray that my ovaries with all my eggs catch on fires and that any guy who lusts at me may his dick shrivel so far that it ends up next to his anus. I’m serious. The world might be a better place, maybe you might save some lives.
I got into an argument with my dad and somehow told him when I’m old I’ll be sitting in a nursing home because I’ll have no kids to take care of me, then he’s like really you think you’re not going to have kids as if I’m wrong. Why do I feel like my parents are sending me this mixed signals? They tear down my self-esteem, never help me gain independence, and especially my mom, she goes on about how we never have anything good in our DNA. Yeah, I think I sure stay away as far from motherhood as fucking possible. Maybe, my dad thinks so lowly of me that I just going to screw around and be a baby mama.
Speaking of the next day, I now have a little anxiety because of what I learned from life as soon as you don’t what something, you’ll going to get it. Just somehow a baby will magically come out of my body. Now, I have thoughts that as soon as I have a baby I’m just going to kill it. Drowning it is the easiest way. Everyone will think what a psychopath I am, but I will think that I am doing it out of love. I know what it is like to grow up as the outcast, and it will break my heart to see him or she grow up the same way and worse fail at everything, so I will be saving the baby from that life that he or she will likely share as a result of being relate to me. Then again maybe society would be angry that they didn’t get a chance to have their pound of flesh.
BTW, when my parent are dead in which I also will be elderly. I can commit suicide because I’ll have no one holding me, and no one cares about the elderly. That’s why suicide is mostly focused on young people. I also my dad that. He told that I would be burning in hell.
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Thanks for posting, I relate to what you say. Your parents sure have a limited and limiting world view. Oh yes, it would be cruel to introduce a child into the picture. Children are people, not little fix-its. Thank you again for posting, it lets others know they are not alone in circumstances like this.
All the more reason to adopt.
So I looked up adoption processes in my state. You have a good point there Mr. SeeSmith.
You seem to be obsessed with sex and the notion that someone is going to randomly fuck you pregnant. I believe in real life people might refer to you as ‘unique’ or mentally detached.
That was unnecessary, sweety
Your genes can’t be that bad if people are lusting after you.
You can’t take away someone else’s life if you care about justice. If you have a baby you don’t want, please give him/her up for adoption and allow them to grow up and make their own choices.
The baby would not be another YOU. It would simply share part of your DNA and would be an individual of their own. They might have a totally different life than you. I know MY life has been completely different than that of my parents.