A Breaking Psyche Monarch Programming

I feel my core is covered by my outer layer and it’s held together, switched together by thread in the back of my mind. Slowly the thread keeps coming undone as old and new trauma keeping occurring. It only takes willpower to tighten the thread a little, only for it to come undone. I think after the thread comes out and the outer layer falls off, only then will my core break. Maybe I will be a robotic slave.

I really like studying monarch programming. Maybe I can relate to the abuse they face, though it’s on a whole level I’ll never know or understand. People tell me that I’m talking, smiling, and laughing for no reason. Sometimes I don’t realize it. It’s just the autism. I’m told that I appear that I’m on drugs, or always daydreaming like I’m in another world. Yesterday, I at last caught myself laughing for no reason. It was like my mind disappeared, but my body took over. It was like I was Britney Spears when she went all random to the reporter going like, “ewwww strawberry” and then she cries a little and tries to act like nothing went wrong. (I’ll put the video down below.) I think she was aware of her actions, but she had no control of them, and was embarrassed by it that it caused her to cry. I wanted to cry because I have no control over my actions. Hopefully, it’s just the autism, and I don’t seen any alter egos coming out. I’m joking BTW.

Here are behaviors from celebrities who are believed to be Monarch Programmed and the Britney Spears one:

https://youtu.be/lqDJYIcPSIM