do you ever feel so useless and depressed that you no longer feel?
after feeling angry and sad for so long i’m starting to only feel numbness. i’m starting to accept the fact that I am useless and will never be skinny or pretty or talented.
i’m too lazy and too far gone to try to “improve” myself and work on trying to get my life back together. when I try to think about feeling “normal” again I immediately realize that that is impossible and absurd. I will never and can never be happy again.
Im such a burden to all who are around me and I’ve been jealous for a long time of everyone, especially the girls i know and see who are pretty and popular and have their lives together. I’m tired of being jealous and being judged by them..
I no longer feel. Therapy is not helping. Nothing can help me now. I’m done with life.
If only I had the strength to kill myself. No use in living anymore, am I right?
2 comments
You share the feelings of thousands of other people. These feelings and expectations are created by those who profit from your suffering. You have a lot of years ahead of you. F the popular and pretty ones; and really F the ones who judge you. The most important person in your life is yourself. This time in your life is to focus on developing your inner self: skills, thoughts, personality, etc. Focus on finding enjoyment a in life. I could go on with more words but the only important thing to say is you’re a creator, this is your world, how do you want it to be?
thank you for the reply, I’ll try to remember what you said and take it to heart. I hope things get better and if you’re struggling with anything then I hope it will get better for you too <3