Trying to hang on, but finding it so hard to. I won’t be in the country during Christmas, and was planning to come home, but my brother is leaving to see his Canadian girlfriend (who I am not a fan of). He wants to spend Christmas with her. Little does he know that I was planning on ending everything after Christmas. I was trying to hold off till then but maybe it will happen sooner. Oh well, my family doesn’t care… they only care in that specific moment when I am sick or depressed. They never bother to ask how I am. I guess they can make their apologies at my tombstone… Looking at methodologies that work…. failed twice before… so where are the serial killers at?
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They might care, but not notice redflags until that critical moment happens.
And sometimes it’s easy to get wrapped up in their own lives..
Kinda natural for someone to want to spend holidays with an SO, tho. Try not to hold against them what they don’t know.
Im planning on visiting my brother again around Easter.. I know sometimes its difficult to see making it to that point.