Well it’s morning and I still obviously want to die. I really just hate waking up knowing that I have nothing to live for. I already know how my days are going to go. They’re always shitty and im just in bed basically until night time. I hope I get the guts soon, to end my own life.
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Same here.
life sucks
Yeah I have spent all day in bed for last 5 years. There is nothing else for me to do.
I think maybe you never get the guts to kill yourself. You just have to do it.
Be robotic, don’t ponder it. Or get really drunk. Hah.
Some people say do trial runs repeatedly, so you’re practised in it. Others say schedule in your time and date, don’t delay or find reasons to defer. Stick to your schedule precisely. It’s easier to do something when it’s in a calendar.
I think it’s also harder the longer you’ve been thinking about it. When I was a kid, it was much easier — but also sloppier, meaning it failed (obviously). As an adult, because I know how to do it quickly and effectively, and also the potential failure or pain outcomes for myself and others, it’s harder to take that last step.
Or maybe it’s my cats.
Yeah I think the more i’ve been thinking about it the harder it gets. There are days where I tell myself “just do it”, but I never go through with it. I’m not really sure if I ever will do it. I guess i’ll have to pick a day and stick to it before the year ends. I don’t really see the reason for me living another year.