I’ve never attempted to kill myself, but these thoughts are endless. I always told myself that my first attempt would be my last because I would get it right. I never wanted to attempt if I knew I was going fail, but I think I’m ready. I’m sure I’ll get it right. These endless thoughts will stop and I won’t have to suffer any longer.
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i’m not sure if you class me as a friend, someone to talk to or nothing at all but your death will sadden me greatly, and I barely know you. it’s nice talking to someone who understands and doesn’t have to question my thoughts and feelings, just wish you didn’t have to face them yourself. i want to tell you there’s a way to make things better, i want to say there’s a cure. i can’t, unfortunately, but i can listen. i hope you pull through it because our conversations help, even if it is just in the slightest way. i’m always here.
If you die before you get the relief from the thoughts or pain, how will you ever know you stopped suffering? That’s what stopped me from thinking about it anymore. I felt if my brain shut off right then, amid pain and misery, but I’d never be able to know it stopped then I’d never really have relief. It wouldn’t change the fact that I did exist and I did feel that way, but instead would ensure I never got better. I feel like I’d be stuck in that hell for eternity if I dont come to terms first and find a way to be ok. And once I finally accepted that belief, I started to feel better just like that.
Be wary lest you are found before completion than any life you could have had will go to hell and you won’t have a life anymore, just constant degradation
Cute, in the same way a toddler who thinks he’s clever for figuring out a basic math question is, sure. I’m not sure what the point of that map is, but I suspect it had some purpose in your mind when you chose it. Also, I may be mistaken, but I do recall reading somewhere that narcissists don’t normally self-identify as such. That’s something people with Avoidant Personality Disorder do online to make themselves seem more impressive, to compensate for their dwindling self-esteem in their daily lives.
Damn, all the comment vanished. Or did I somehow wind up on the wrong thread? Huh… disregard that last comment, please.