Do you ever actually have a good day for once, and then it takes a sharp turn?
i had had a decent week. People had actually talked to me, I slept and ate better than usual, and I didn’t feel as bad as I normally do.
However, I came home today and it slapped me in the face. Depression.
“Why did you think you could escape me, you pathetic fuck? You will never be normal, you aren’t allowed to feel “happy.”
I stagger up but depression shoves me back down, towards my razor blades.
“No one will ever fucking love you. Those people you think like you, are only talking to you because they have to to be polite. They don’t care about you. No one does.”
“your parents wish they had a second chance at a daughter because you are such a fucking loser. I hate you so much you’re so pathetic, fat, and stupid. Why did you start eating again, you fat fuck? You probably gained 10 pounds this week.”
“You deserve to die. I can’t believe you missed your suicide date on August 25th, you fucking *****. Couldn’t even come close to killing yourself, and that’s another reason why you’re the fucking worst.”
“you will never escape me. The only way out is death. You are depression. I am you. You will never be normal.”
“There is no escape.”
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That sums it up sounds like its talking to me
I’m so sorry you’re having to deal with that because I’m going through it and it sucks… stay strong, I really hope things get better for you
Thank you for putting in to words what I cannot.
Why do you feel like you need someone to love you?
That seems like a codepency issue.
Sounds like another reason to kill myself
I feel the same exact way ..
This is just put into words that perfectly describe depression. But also describes me on a normal basis.